What if you died today? Would you be happy with the way you lived your life?

[EyeBeyond]

pretty average life, I did nothing special, but I can not complain

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I wouldn't be happy with my life even if I were to die after completing the months of preparation I'd have to do. That's kind of the reason I want to die in the first place. If I died today though, I guess I'd be alright with it but I'd much rather have all my affairs in order first and there's just not enough time to complete it in one day.

 

[butterfly000]

I would not be happy with the way I lived. But knowing myself I probably would have done the same if I got another chance, so I guess it doesn't matter. I try not to worry about it too much. I would just accept death with open arms.

 

[breezeboy]

Happy with how I've lived my life? No.
Shame, regret, and sadness make up the walls of my mind. Throw in "being a dick" as the 4th.

 

[february in alaska]

I would not be happy with the way I lived. But knowing myself I probably would have done the same if I got another chance, so I guess it doesn't matter. I try not to worry about it too much. I would just accept death with open arms.

Same here. I'm not happy with myself, with my past self, with my decisions… but if I had the chance to go back I would probably do it all even worse. I failed, it's fine,I'd just like to rest

 

[Andrew10]

I had a small period in my life where I was happy, but now that I think about it, I was simply a simple punching bag for relief for a few or a simple circus for the entertainment of others, I was happy but I think that for the simple fact I hadn't realized I was happy, my answer is: It could have been better but I'm not complaining. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

[BuckyDee2036]

Well, I hate who I was and who I am. Although I wouldn't give a duck since I would have left my body behind if I die

 

[doormat25]

I was a ten at being a two. Now I'm just really tired.

 

[LossOfMe]

Hating how everything turned out is the entire reason why I want to CTB.

 

[Raindancer]

Wow, that takes a bit of thought. Overall yes. I did the best I could at the time with where I was at. Some regrets, some big ones I'd like to get back. Their is definitely more I would like to be able to do.

 

[PixelPlant]

no, i failed everything. i'm only 21 but it's like there's a constant rush, like i need to accomplish everything quickly before reaching a certain age to live the life i desire. so if there was an option to restart in this reality, i would gladly take that chance and fix all my mistakes.

 

[Abbadab]

I'll be sad a happy life wasn't feasible, but I think I would be content with what I was able to make of it in my 25 years.

I did my absolute best to get better for countless years. I did well in school, extracurriculars, and work until my bipolar progressed to the point of no return. I broke the generations-long abusive cycle my family was in.

Considering I've wanted to die since I can remember, I could've done a lot worse.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Honestly I'd feel indifferent.

To me the goal of life is simply reaching the end, nothing else really works for me.

 

[lebrodude]

Nah, too many regrets.
I feel I've wasted this life.

 

[iasfh]

I would just be relieved its finaly over.

 

[zanahori]

no

 

[passivethought121]

No. If I knew I was dying before it happened, I would be happy

 

[Dliena]

Not really I don't think. But tbh I don't think I ever had a shot to live a successful life due to having a messed up brain and even if somehow I did I doubt it would've sooth my inevitable exist crisis and overall purpose of this whole shebang of life.

 

[greatgooglymoogly]

My life is nothing special and I have more regrets than not, but I'm mostly over it or at least have given up trying and failing to turn things around before I go. I'm pretty fine with dying on my drive home today tbh

 

[tappingout91]

Nope. But I also cannot fix everything about my life that I take issue with.

to me CTB is just one positive move that I can make in a life that has not been positive or prosperous.

 

[Gonnerr]

50/50

 

[onbekend]

For the most part. There's some things I'd like to still do before I die but other than that I'd be content with it.

 

[PhilosopherInAV0id]

The reason I started CTB in the first place was because I felt that the longer that I lasted, the longer I would have to make this world worse-for myself and others. Even if I died in the next instant, the only thing that would accomplish is stop me from doing so, not reverse what's already been done. Nothing I've done would ever merit rewards or recognition from anyone, including my close friends and family. All I want is to stop the cycle, but human nature gets in the way

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I guess I wouldn't be happy with the life I lived though the key idea to note here is that I won't ever be happy with the life I lived so the earlier I die, the less I suffer overall. Also, I never really wanted to live life to begin with as, to me, the joys of life don't outweigh the suffering and hardship I have to go through especially when I have to blend in with neurotypicals as a neurodivergent. I got no goals here, nothing that I really want to do so of course I'm not happy about my life but I would be happy to be dead as then I would no longer suffer from anything

 

[omegas82128]

I'm pretty content. I have my fair share of regrets, but I did the best I could. I wish I was better, but I wasn't

 

[deadbody]

No, and I can't be sure if the future would be happy too. I messed up my whole life.

 

[dinosavr]

It could have been worse but still I'm not satisfied at all, there's a lot I could fix.
But I don't want to, I don't care about being remembered by anyone or all these bucket lists etc

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be so incredibly relieved to finally cease existing, death truly is the only relief in this hellish and harmful existence, I despise how I existed at all in the first place, procreation is extreme cruelty and slavery. It's very burdensome to exist, there is no "happiness" in having the ability to suffer endlessly. Honestly I'm just sad that I managed to exist for so long, even one second in this existence is one second too long for me, next to never existing at all I'd prefer to die as soon as possible as existence will always be undesirable no matter what. I only see those who die as being fortunate as they are now eternally incapable of suffering but of course the only true perfection lies in never existing at all.

 

[Himeasa]

I've ruined my life irrevocably. Not that couldn't continue living, but not in the way I want. It's my narcissism. This is from my current perspective, so a hypothetical future me in ten years time might be glad she did not die, but that is another me, not the current me.

I hate my life, but if I died, I would lose all frame of reference and cease to be I, therefore it would not make a difference.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

No it was a disaster filled with misery.
Apart from few happy moments.