Venting What if this isnt meant for me?

[-FrozenRobot-]

My mom and dad forced me into studying medicine and I feel like it's too much for me. I'm bipolar and have issues with everything. People don't mingle with me stating that I'm too moody for them and I've concluded that relationships aren't meant for me.
I was confused about what I should study and they took advantage of my vulnerability and pushed me into this. This is too much. This is just adding more stress to the existing problems.

 

[hungry_ghost]

So quit.

If you could pick anything you actually liked to do, and wanted to do for a living, what do you think that would be?

Are you being medicated for BPD?

 

[Rational man]

Maybe you need a frank open conversation with your parents. Follow your heart rather than what they think is best, otherwise you will regret.

 

[FuneralCry]

It does sound very stressful being in that situation, and I can imagine that it must be exhausting dealing with all that pressure. I know that it is hard to carry on when you suffer so much. I hope that you find relief from what you are going through.

 

[hellispink]

It must be very difficult. Sometimes we might need to change our perception in order to survive or at least deal with situations we are not okay with . If we see in the long run, how do we perceive ourselves with that career? If the answer is unhappy then it is not the way to go, doesn't matter anyone or anything else. But if there is something there despite being hard that you see as worth it, maybe changing perception and taking things slower could help. However, I suggest you do what feels okay for you only.

 

[Eternally Dottie]

Medicine is extremely stressful even if you choose to study it. My cousin studied medicine, became a doctor and was about to go into general practice. She was so clever but ended up CTB in her early 30's as think it was all too much and she didn't want to leave and felt she was letting people down. It was devastating for our family. Can you talk to your parents and tell them you're not happy? Am sorry you're in this position

My mom and dad forced me into studying medicine and I feel like it's too much for me. I'm bipolar and have issues with everything. People don't mingle with me stating that I'm too moody for them and I've concluded that relationships aren't meant for me.
I was confused about what I should study and they took advantage of my vulnerability and pushed me into this. This is too much. This is just adding more stress to the existing problems.

 

[Rational man]

Medicine is extremely stressful even if you choose to study it. My cousin studied medicine, became a doctor and was about to go into general practice. She was so clever but ended up CTB in her early 30's as think it was all too much and she didn't want to leave and felt she was letting people down. It was devastating for our family. Can you talk to your parents and tell them you're not happy? Am sorry you're in this position

Im.seeing more stories in the news. Terrible. one GP strung himself.self up after a misdiagnosis. A consultant found strung up in the operating room. Others went over cliffs. Very sad and stress ful.

 

[Viafactorum]

Well I'm pretty sure they did it for their own self interest but if you have gotten into the program and you're able to hang on academically then I suggest pushing through. Mainly because doctors are in short supply all over the world so after clearing a licensing exam and language exam you can practice almost anywhere in the world(except for the some African and Caribbean locations but in those places the only way to practice is by graduating from a local medical school). Another reason is that even though the profession will most probably give you crippling depression you'll still be better off than 90% people because of the salary you will get(which again depends on your location, I mean if you are in Cuba or Egypt then good luck bucko).

Most jobs that pay you enough to live a safe life will make you depressed. Especially medicine which will take decades to complete in terms of studies and the work is so dogshit boring and depressing. Too many cardiology residents painting the wall with their grey matter because most of their day revolves around fleecing the relatives of brain dead patients for organ donations. I know it can be hard with BPD but try your best to push through, take medication and pick up some organizational skill like keeping a journal(notion works pretty well). I suggest focusing on a residency that will land you a desk job at some nation's DoH or something because it will be similar to a regular corporate job but with the pay you'll get as a practicing specialist(I suggest going with something like Internal Medicine and do a fellowship in Infectious Diseases, you'll have options to get into epidemiology which is a sure way of getting a boring desk job that pays well).

Despite what all the glamorized celebrity doctors say on YouTube, medicine is a solitary journey when it comes to personal achievements and qualifications. You aren't facing your licensing exams in groups nor are you selected into residency based on your ability to circle jerk your peers. Just bury your social life and adapt your life to that of a recluse(especially during the pre and paraclinical years). You can pick up the broken pieces later. But if you think you cannot adjust with the program then you should consider switching. I'm sure that is a very difficult decision to make and the anxiety can be lethal, but if you go forward with a program you cannot cope with, you will end up trapped. So think carefully. Take a week off and think about it.

 

[Eternally Dottie]

Im.seeing more stories in the news. Terrible. one GP strung himself.self up after a misdiagnosis. A consultant found strung up in the operating room. Others went over cliffs. Very sad and stress ful.

The NHS always gets a bashing and people say doctors are lazy and negligent but they are under immense pressure. They have one of the highest suicide rates and and incidences of alcoholism.

The NHS always gets a bashing and people say doctors are lazy and negligent but they are under immense pressure. They have one of the highest suicide rates and and incidences of alcoholism.

Considering your story @Rational man you are very forgiving. I have the utmost respect for you

 

[-FrozenRobot-]

Medicine is extremely stressful even if you choose to study it. My cousin studied medicine, became a doctor and was about to go into general practice. She was so clever but ended up CTB in her early 30's as think it was all too much and she didn't want to leave and felt she was letting people down. It was devastating for our family. Can you talk to your parents and tell them you're not happy? Am sorry you're in this position

Nah I can't tell them I'm unhappy with this. They won't take no for an answer and my family is dysfunctional

So quit.

If you could pick anything you actually liked to do, and wanted to do for a living, what do you think that would be?

Are you being medicated for BPD?

Yeah I am under medication

 

[ctwc]

Don't want to assume anything, but your situation seem to happen a lot with my Asian circle for some reason.

Indeed people are flawed, and not everyone are born with equal chances either.

 

[WannaBdoneSufferng]

Only you know what you can handle in terms of stress, especially if you have more of a "stress system" than a support system. It it one thing to encourage you to step outside of a comfort zone. It is entirely another to keep pushing past that point. It is more than ok if you do something else. It is better. Forcing people into vocations because of debt and nonsense does not make a workforce that does their job well. Quite the opposite. If only people could trade in their degrees for further education in another field... Later. When they are inevitably burned out.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

The NHS always gets a bashing and people say doctors are lazy and negligent but they are under immense pressure. They have one of the highest suicide rates and and incidences of alcoholism.

I don't doubt that NHS doctors are under huge pressure, but its up to them to band together and say "this isn't okay" and get changes started. Nobody else is going to fight on behalf of doctors besides doctors. They've spent their sympathy.

My mom and dad forced me into studying medicine and I feel like it's too much for me. I'm bipolar and have issues with everything. People don't mingle with me stating that I'm too moody for them and I've concluded that relationships aren't meant for me.
I was confused about what I should study and they took advantage of my vulnerability and pushed me into this. This is too much. This is just adding more stress to the existing problems.

If you can't do it, you can't do it. It's not up for debate or compromise. Tell your parents that, if they don't hear you, then walk away. This is your life, not theirs. If they can't clearly see you're suffering and can't do this then they aren't worth your time.