what I should be doing

[wildflowers1996]

I feel like I shouldn't be trying to ctb I should be less selfish I should be less focused on my own problems and try to fight past them to do good things in the world like volunteer for charities helping victims of war I shouldn't be stressing my mum out and ruining her life with my disorder

but all I want is to die I don't even feel like my reason for wanting to die is "good enough" but I so badly want it all to end but am I just weak and selfish