Discussion What happened to me

[fkyou]

What happened to me?why did I all of a sudden lost all my reasons to die?like dying or living is the same?like nothing matters?Like I'm not myself? Like I never had principles before? I also have internet addiction and it's been 2 weeks since I lost the joy even from this addiction (which is crazy.curently I have no appetite to watch anything because all I feel when I watch things is grief over my situation-yes grief that's what im feeling now-it was the only thing keeping me - I feel numb.like I don't have an original thought? My mind is empty of thoughts and I feel no good emotions.or no emotions at all.does anyone know what is this, it's the first time I feel like this.

 

[tryingtoquietdown]

I don't know if it's anhedonia, which is the clinical term for the inability to feel joy, but that kind of numbness is common for people with severe depression and similar mental illnesses. Just a cloud of grey nothingness. Grief is a good word for the deeper part of that feeling, where the cloud becomes black and everything hurts. I'm sorry I don't have a solution for you, but you're not alone in your feelings. Maybe looking up ways to combat anhedonia or numbness could help.