what do you want

[disgusting-life]

Total relief would be really nice even though it feels impossible but even then, I don't think I could ever be the person I was before all this.

Forever hollow

 

[Jisatsu]

Death isn't painless , it's just always best to go unconscious fast .

 

[FuneralCry]

All I could ever hope for is the true peace of non-existence where this evil, futile existence that just causes harm and suffering is all gone, forgotten and erased, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake and I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, for me non-existence is all that's positive.

To exist is the most terrible undeserved punishment, only non-existence can solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering and torture in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, there truly is just so much evil in existing. The existence of life truly is the most terrible, devastating tragedy, non-existence is all I could hope for but I really wish I never had to suffer more than anything in this painful, deeply undesirable and harmful existence, the fact that humans cause all this dreadful suffering by imposing this existence is just so horrible to me.