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DiscussionWhat do you think ppl will assume the reason for ur suicide as?
Thread starterchaoschuckler
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My dad will probably frame me as a phone addict and it's because of unemployment, he is manipulative and perfect gaslighter, so that will work. But screw him, i am not even on socials and I've been thinking about this since I was a minor!
What about you guys?
I think people will assume I left out of loneliness and heartbreak, when it would really be due to exhaustion, disappointment and in prevention of a miserable future.
The people who know I'm suicidal will correctly blame my illness, trauma and the inability to make a life worth living.
The people who are still close to me, but don't know, will most likely blame it on a recent heartbreak and I really don't want that, because the person has nothing to do with me ctbing.
The rest I don't really care. If someone never cared to listen to me and understand when I was alive, then I don't care what they think when I'm dead. That's most of my family and especially my gaslighting parents.
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I plan to leave behind a detailed note signifying what led to my decision. I have no idea if it'll console them, if they'll be able to blame the mental illness that curses me rather than themselves, but I hope they'll eventually be fine.
my mom will blame herself, and my dad
my dad will blame my mom, and maybe also kill himself
my close friends will blame themselves, and my dad, me being an idiot and my ex boyfriend
my extended friends will blame me for being an idiot and thinking everything has a solution
my extended family will blame themselves, my dad, and maybe my ex boyfriend
and i hope my ex boyfriend feels some of the guilt and blame bc he is part of the reason
My family might think I'm just going through a temporary bout of despair, because everything has a "silver lining," but I think they're overlooking a certain reality.
However, I feel my family is likely to be subjected to malicious speculation from those around them, because the reason I want to end my life has nothing to do with themāyet they might speculate that I've suffered some kind of abuse at home.
I simply cannot understand why so many people in society are always speculating about these so-called "reasons." If they truly cared about the person involved, they wouldn't subject those who matter to them to further psychological doubt and torment.
they'll know it's because of my physical pain on top of my past and just things getting intolerable for me to exist through anymore, i'll make that clear. my parents will understand that more but will still blame themselves for not being able to help more when there was nothing they could do, they did all and more than they could. my ex husband will probably blame himself harder..... i always told him about how i didnt see a future for myself without him, i just never could with my illnesses and mental bullshit i always had to deal with, and i was always just existing to make my family happy until i had him, he made me not scared of growing old (as much) anymore. but the court part of the divorce i guess "finalizing" it was finished a week ago, im already moved out and no contact fully, and my hope in a future is just gone. i dont want him to blame himself for that though, im the one who fucked up, i hurt him, so he shouldnt have to shoulder any blame. but i know he's had the same thoughts as me before and i worry he will just follow in my footsteps once i ctb. it feels most likely, its selfish of me but i wouldnt want him doing the same, i would want him to find someone who can make him happier.. but i cant control him like others cant with me, so i would hope we at least meet in the clouds if it ends that way, and maybe try again in a new life
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