What do you think it would happen if somebody who knows you, found you on SS?

[WornOutLife]

Because of my profile pic and some others I uploaded a few times, some people have made me this question.

I think only two things could happen:

1) They could ask me why I'm here and tell me not to ctb but I would answer: "What are YOU doing here? Why do you want to ctb too?"

Then, I would explain to them that SS works better than therapy for me and ask them to see my interactions with you all. In other words, I'm still alive thanks to SS.

2) They might just tell me that they happened to find randomly a suicide forum and that there'a a user who's uploading pictures of me.

I look like the happiest person on Earth IRL because I'm really good at hiding my depression and bipolar disorder so, I bet they would really think this is not me and even if they wouldn't, I don't really care. I would even feel relieved to talk about SS with somebody who knows me.

Now, what about you? Most of you don't have pics of yourselves but might've provided some info about your personal life so, if someome you knew read your posts, they might be suspicious of you.
Thus, I ask you:

What would you do if someone you knew found here and asked you what you're doing in this community?

 

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

I would just ignore it until the problem goes away hopefully.

 

[Isisnefert]

IIt's possible, but I need to talk About my story here, at first I didn't it cause this reason but now I Don't care

 

[Lmd]

I would be concerned for them. People already know I'm suicidal so isn't a big deal.

 

[loopylou]

I wouldn't do anything but shrug my shoulders and tell them my life choices aren't explainable. Jog on..

 

[Celerity]

I'm ashamed to admit that I have fantasies about this - like I can be saved or something even though I know no one can do any such thing.

 

[Odwin]

What are you doing here?
Uhh, I really like the word sanctioned.

Jokes besides it is really impossible to find someone here I know.
First of all it isn't easy to find the website if you don't know how to search for it.
Second, everyone I know they can't read English.

 

[loopylou]

What are you doing here?
Uhh, I really like the word sanctioned.

Jokes besides it is really impossible to find someone here I know.
First of all it isn't easy to find the website if you don't know how to search for it.
Second, everyone I know they can't read English.

Really? I found the site within seconds of googling the terms

 

[Odwin]

Really? I found the site within seconds of googling the terms

Yeah, in Germany you can't find it anymore easily with Google. Needed to use duckgogo. Really weird

 

[omoidarui]

to party in the music megathread an afterz topic !!

 

[lofticries]

If it's my parents or a family member I play dumb af.

If its like a co worker and such I tell them to mind their own fucking business in the kindest way possible.

 

[Ame]

Ideally, no one I know will ever stumble upon this forum nor find themselves in the position where they feel the need to end their lives. If someone does come across this forum and successfully identifies me from my post history (which I admit is possible if someone were to line up my stories with their post dates), I hope that I am already dead and socially distanced from life (buried six feet under). It would definitely be embarrassing, but maybe reading through my posts will provide the reader with more insight into the rationale behind my choice...Although, I don't know how much comfort that would bring, especially since I intend to omit the darker and more self-deprecating bits from my notes.

If I am discovered before my attempt, I am likely in for a very bad time and I doubt that I will be able to talk myself out of a psych ward admission. I could try to write it off as a coincidence but I am a terrible liar. I would pray to be struck by lightening because I did bear my heart in some posts and the shame of knowing that someone in my life could have read those posts would be too much to handle.

 

[bloomingdark]

My boyfriend found out, but he didn't really said anything, apart from that i would just act based on my beliefs, if it's someone close i would be fucked up but c:

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

No one would care at all lol.

 

[popcorn]

id be grassed up and captured when i post a goodbye thread lol

so it doesnt bare thinking about

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

I would say: ,,It's NOT me. Somebody else has similar life like me. I would never commit suicide." But if somebody who knows me would read also this, I'm fucked up.

So if YOU (my dear family, friends...) recognized me here, don't ask me any questions otherwise I will kill myself the next day from your stupid bullshits!

 

[LastWhisper]

"Well, so what? Can you finally leave me alone?"

 

[Bagger]

What would happen? I would be laughed off and called weak bitch lol, then this info would circulate fast inside jerk circle of my best friends. Other than that - nothing significant. I don't care if they ever found me here or not. Maybe i will even show this place to some, to check what will really happen.

 

[nolongerhuman]

Assuming someone on SS messaged me and claimed to know me there are Several avenues:

1: "You've mistaken me for someone else, I don't know you".

2: "My post history makes the reason I'm here pretty clear. Tell anyone and I'll never speak to you again". Only to use if Avenue 1 doesn't work.

 

[Fthis]

Really? I found the site within seconds of googling the terms

I found it on a list of evil suicide forums and I had to enter the exact url or else it would give me the hotline and hide the website

 

[Sensei]

People would get shocked and treat me with kid gloves, but I wouldn't care because there would be nothing I can do about it.

 

[Ani198]

Im not afraid of being found out by anyone on the forum. My name here is the same as many other places where I'm known and I make no effort to disguise my typing style so if you know me online at all you'll likely recognize me.

If somebody were to bring it up, id likely downplay the severity of my depression by saying something like "I found the forum in a really bad place, but it made me realize that I don't actually want to kill myself."

However, if my bf found me I don't know what I would do. He's way too good at seeing through me. I suppose the only thing I could do would be to tell him to go through my post history so he can understand my situation and that he's keeping me alive rn. I'll never say that to his face because of the pressure it would put on him though.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Hmm... Well if that happens I suppose that maybe he/she is here for same reason. Ofc that someone would ask is that true what I'm writing here and if he/she don't understand why I feel like that he/she probably tell how selfish I'm and so on... I'm totally ok with that, but hoping that if someone who I know is here, he/she tell me that and we could talk about that. I'm not afraid of it. It could be good thing too.

 

[Umbreon]

I found out yesterday that my sister stalks my account thankfully she's also pro-choice miraculously. Only person in my family who has common fucking sense.

 

[LunarPyotr]

They would definitely put me into a psych ward after finding that out but luckily I'm encrypting everything and I'm mindful of my digital life so that it'll be hard to find my real identity : )

 

[Trisolaris]

I think they'll be worried for me and tell me to stop visiting it.

 

[Odwin]

I think they'll be worried for me and tell me to stop visiting it.

 

[ClairyFairy]

I think I'd die of shame. I don't care what capacity I knew them. So if you think you know me please keep it to yourself

 

[Fehler]

Quite uncomfortable for me, no one apart from the forum knows, although it is not that I hide it here because if someone close read a specific post or a photo, they could get the idea that it is me. Anyway, my 3 relatives I doubt very much that one would enter the forum, perhaps a friend but I see it very unlikely.
If the hypothetical case were given, I would say that it helps me to disconnect and vent because I had no other place to do it.

 

[demuic]

My only friend already knows my username here on SS.

As for my mom, she might be sad but I will tell her it's basically like a support group.

I don't know many people so there's not anyone else who could find me.