do you ever wonder what would happen after you killed yourself

[Claymore7274]

I fantasize about it every day, but in the end it's not like i'll get to know, but i bet mom and dad would be sad. the rest of my family have gone through other family members suicides so ig it wont be that bad for them

 

[Clovurr]

My mom has trauma from her brothers suicide she would hate me forever and probably end up taking her own life too but I can't help but flirt with the idea of dying anyway, I was thinking of ending it when I get a little older and more insufferable to be around

 

[sadman1897]

It'll be an emotionally charged shitshow. I love my family and they love me, but I can't keep suffering like this for much longer. It's so bad…and it'll be horrible for them. I feel like such a terrible person and I'll be remembered as one by some. Rightfully so, in some ways, but they can never understand how torturous my existence is everyday. I have brain damage from medication and I'm stuck on said medication. Been riding this merry go round for a year now and it's only getting worse. I'll be remembered as a selfish mother for hurting my child like this but it hurts so much to stay alive. I truly feel awful!! . I never should have had a kid. if I knew this was going to happen to me ,I never would have. i used to be such a great mom; these poisons have robbed me of everything. I just want to rest in peace, I'm never at peace now, just pumped full of anxiety.

I'm in the same boat . For some reason SSRIs have destroyed my mind. My brain has become mush and it has destroyed me .

 

[UntitledUser]

I know my sister, my dad and my best friends will be ruined. But I expect they eventually forget me. I'm afraid of what they can find about me when I'm gone…but certainly I'll be dead and won't be to see what happens after ctb. But I don't know how other people will react. My coworkers? Old foes from high school? I wish we could decide freely about our destiny and no one else get hurt for my actions.

 

[idiotmother]

I'm in the same boat . For some reason SSRIs have destroyed my mind. My brain has become mush and it has destroyed me .

I'm so sorry you're experiencing this too, it's a truly horrific curse. I was first injured by Effexor and now I'm on anti-psychotics which have made me so sick. Because of my hypersensitive brain state I cannot safely taper them either so I have no choice but to ctb. No one gets it, they think I can heal and get through it but it is so horrendous, there's no way I'm making it out alive.

 

[sadman1897]

I'm so sorry you're experiencing this too, it's a truly horrific curse. I was first injured by Effexor and now I'm on anti-psychotics which have made me so sick. Because of my hypersensitive brain state I cannot safely taper them either so I have no choice but to ctb. No one gets it, they think I can heal and get through it but it is so horrendous, there's no way I'm making it out alive.

I'm so sorry that you are struggling . It feels almost impossible to heal from , like it's at a point of no return and becoming the person I was is not even possible .

 

[idiotmother]

I'm so sorry that you are struggling . It feels almost impossible to heal from , like it's at a point of no return and becoming the person I was is not even possible .

I feel the same way;(. It does feel impossible to heal from, so much damage already done. It's so painful to think of how and who we used to be.

 

[kipstriesagain]

i believe that after a week or two everyone will move on

 

[braintorture]

Do you want to die or people to know how much you suffer?