If I would really decide to give up, I would go to my local BTC ATM, empty my BTC Wallet, order an Sexworker/Escort for a whole night, then eat a Schnitzel and end it all in my secret location.
Before anyone judges, I wouldn't order her for doing the naughty stuff. Just for cuddling because I want to experience at least one last thing before killing myself.
I done that before when I was feeling very lonely once and there is a girl from a specific site, which I booked one day and it was really relaxing.
There is one fun thing now, which is kinda funny. She was taller than me and nowadays, when I'm browsing through the social media and see those Lady Dimitrisu (or however that "Tall Vampire Lady" is called), I immediately think of that Sexworker
