Wanted to CTB for years and now ready. Want to do it the drowning route

[GQ_CTB]

Hi,

First time poster. I have been lurking here for months and been wanting to CTB for years. I took on the old saying of trying to follow my passion and I am now broke, fed up and tired of where middle age has gotten me to. I come from a horrible family and a narcissist mother who broke me and I have never been the same. Every day is a bloody struggle and I want to CTB.

There is more than enough water sources around me and I do not know swimming due to a childhood incident. I hence want to go the drowning route and believe it will be the best one for me. There are bridges, roads and even secluded water sources around me. I can only get the weaker NITRATE here in my country and I have suffered with medications all my life. At least my exit should be without ingesting more medicines or powders.

I intend to do it when rains will come in and not during summer as the water sources will be full and drowning will be easier. I have looked at the threads here and almost all talk of SN. There is a Drowning Megathread but it does not talk of drowning in open water, rivers, sea or whether its better to jump off a road/bridge into the water.

I also want to go the drowning way as I do not want my "family" to get to my body or get to do drama with it if it's found. I want to just merge with nature and never be found hopefully. Hence the drowning route...

All suggestions will be welcome and helpful for me to CTB.

Thanks
GQ (Go Quietly)

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I've thought about this before. I was thinking doing it in the winter at night, would be best cause if someone happens to help i would die of hypothermia maybe. Also harder to find me at night. I never thought of the rain helping like you mentioned. Sounds really painful and a long time of fear tho. I don't think I can do it after thinking about it long.

What's your passion you followed?

 

[rkk3]

dont drown in the winter because alive longer look it up

like for hours they can be saved after hours in cold water you dont want that

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

I also thought of this before but i am pretty sure SI would kick in. And even if one manages to circumvent that, i doubt it's a pleasant way to go.
Why does dying have to be so hard.

 

[PanaxMan]

Hi,

First time poster. I have been lurking here for months and been wanting to CTB for years. I took on the old saying of trying to follow my passion and I am now broke, fed up and tired of where middle age has gotten me to. I come from a horrible family and a narcissist mother who broke me and I have never been the same. Every day is a bloody struggle and I want to CTB.

There is more than enough water sources around me and I do not know swimming due to a childhood incident. I hence want to go the drowning route and believe it will be the best one for me. There are bridges, roads and even secluded water sources around me. I can only get the weaker NITRATE here in my country and I have suffered with medications all my life. At least my exit should be without ingesting more medicines or powders.

I intend to do it when rains will come in and not during summer as the water sources will be full and drowning will be easier. I have looked at the threads here and almost all talk of SN. There is a Drowning Megathread but it does not talk of drowning in open water, rivers, sea or whether its better to jump off a road/bridge into the water.

I also want to go the drowning way as I do not want my "family" to get to my body or get to do drama with it if it's found. I want to just merge with nature and never be found hopefully. Hence the drowning route...

All suggestions will be welcome and helpful for me to CTB.

Thanks
GQ (Go Quietly)

I've tried it. In fact I'm in front of the damn pond right now. Obviously I would've have a much more success rate with not knowing how to swim but I recommend doing your own research but I will warn you not having air is extremely painful. I could've easily gone out this way but a few seconds without air to possibly surviving tens of minutes to multiple hours is fucking scary. But it's your choice nonetheless

 

[Kanau_Nano]

dont drown in the winter because alive longer look it up

like for hours they can be saved after hours in cold water you dont want that

Wow that sounds terrible to be in the water for hours in the cold. I will look that up. Sounds crazy. I'm curious how that works. Thanks for info

 

[PanaxMan]

Wow that sounds terrible to be in the water for hours in the cold. I will look that up. Sounds crazy. I'm curious how that works. Thanks for info

It's your blood and reaction to the temperature change. It's interesting but ain't helping ya if you wanted to go out that way

 

[rkk3]

im not scared of my lungs

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from suffering.