What do you hate about yourself?

[WatermelonMel]

Almost everything, I'd rather be somebody else

 

[alexithymia]

1. I hate my tendency to ruminate, obsess, and fixate on things I can't control.
2. I hate my body—particularly my breasts, thighs, and stomach.
3. I hate how socially awkward I am. I never have anything to say.
4. i hate how I focus on the existential dread I feel consistently.
5. I hate my shitty fine motor skills.
6. I hate my hands.
7. I hate my neediness and controlling nature.
8. I hate how often I crack my knuckles.
9. I hate how I'm incapable of making friends—it's like I lack the ability to output anything.
10. I hate I overthink everything and push people away.

Kind of an awkward list, but honestly cathartic.

 

[Blackjack]

I hate that I have 2 bottles of N 5 feet away from me and am too much of a pussy to drink them.

 

[Erin Inari]

I hate my cowardliness, not going through with anything really. I hate my lack of social skills that have deteriorated from abysmal to nonexistent. I hate my body, mainly my dick. I hate my emotions and how they overwhelm me. I hate myself for all the wasted time that I could have done something better. I hate how I can never seem to say the right things.

 

[Lethe]

I don't really hate much of anything about myself, it's other people that I hate. Sometimes I wish I could form an attachment with another human being, but then I remember they're not worthy of it.

I hate my sex drive as well, it's such a disgusting and animalistic instinct. Luckily I'm chemically castrated now, so it's not nearly as prevalent anymore. There is something about the feeling of firing blanks that is somehow even MORE disgusting to me though, ugh...

 

[jjoedia]

I hate that I have 2 bottles of N 5 feet away from me and am too much of a pussy to drink them.

Where did you get your 2 bottles from if you don't mind me asking? Thank you in advance.

 

[thx1138]

I hate my damaged brain. My body works fine, but my brain doesn't. I hate that I'm so different from everyone. I hate that I can't just live and be the way they all want me to be. I hate myself and I believe I am a bad person. I failed. I missed the mark. I've been paranoid and hateful all my life. The world will be a better place once I'm gone.

 

[Blackjack]

Where did you get your 2 bottles from if you don't mind me asking? Thank you in advance.

Originally from A.

 

[jjoedia]

Originally from A.

Thank you. What country are you from? Why originally? Did you have to order more?

 

[Blackjack]

Thank you. What country are you from? Why originally? Did you have to order more?

US. I bought mine from someone on here who had originally bought it from A.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

I feel like I'm turning into a sociopath, that I'm losing my sense of morality, care and self control. I'm just fucked and I'm sick of living a double life.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

My appearance, (part of) my personality, my genetics, my nationality, my history, my upbringing, pretty much everything, no matter if I have control over it or not.

 

[Élégie]

My appearance, my personality, my past (memories)... everything.

 

[woxihuanni]

I love myself, nothing whatsoever majorly wrong with me. Except looks, but it all rots the same.

 

[ALittleBurden]

A lot of ranting to myself ahead, please just scroll pass this reply.
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I hate that I don't even have a stable personality. I hate how my mind suddenly changes between different characters. I hate that all of them are so pathetic. I hate that I know I'm broken beyond repair. I hate that I absolutely don't want to try to seek for help, and yet I am ashamed of that. I hate that I can't even communicate like an actual person. I hate that I'm a "slow thinker". I hate that I'm always "The weird one". I hate that I want to die so badly and don't have guts to do it. I hate that I failed my attempt so miserably, like just a dumb kid. I hate that I am just a dumb kid. I hate that I can't just be normal. I hate that I'm not a human being - I'm a walking failure.

 

[Ruffian]

Contrary to most people posting here I don't hate myself. It actually made me quite sad reading about how many of you guys posted that you hate yourselves. A common misconception about suicidal people is that they have low self esteem and they hate themselves. I actually like who I am as a person. I feel that I have a strong character and I have always made an effort to be nice to other people regardless of the abuse I faced in my life. I had many passions in my life that I wish I could've pursued further but unfortunately the circumstances in my life made it impossible. At the end of the day I would say I'm suicidal not because of who I am but because of the circumstances I've faced. In fact I would say I like myself so much that I don't think I deserve to suffer everyday like I've been doing.

Wow. I may have to PM you. This is me EXACTLY. I am so angry at my home state of Pennsylvania right now I want to throw rotten eggs at the capital. I can't believe our fucking Democratic Governor is allowing the Biebers to fulfill their witch hunt. I gave up monitoring their actions but they've pushed me to my breaking point.

 

[mynameispaige]

I hate that I hate everything about myself and that it's my own fault. That even though I had a rough upbringing I could've chose to be better but continuously made the wrong decisions ruining my own life. So now I'm alone with not even one friend while my family doesn't even want me. Not that they ever did. I hate that I feel rejected by the entire world. That I'm so isolated that I have no social skills at all. I hate that I waited too long to try to get better. That I'm struggling so bad to get myself out of the deep hole I put myself in and I don't know what to do.

 

[TiredOfLife95]

My appearance, (part of) my personality, my genetics, my nationality, my history, my upbringing, pretty much everything, no matter if I have control over it or not.

Why your nationality?

 

[BridgeJumper]

Some things I hate myself for:
I didnt do anything to stop the abuse conducted on me and now Im fucked up beyond repair
My body is disgusting, always had an eating disorder, Im so saggy and loose skin and stretch marked from all the weight I gained and lost. i literally tie my waist off and punch myself and cry next to my bathroom scale.
Not being able to say no to anything and having a weak spine
Never completing education and achieving my dreams. I dreamed of going to art school and becoming a painter, depression ruined it all.

 

[bhav]

I hate that I don't know where I'm going with my life, I hate that I'm attracted to men, i hate that I hate that I'm attracted to men, i hate that I want to die, I hate that I'm a burden to my family, I hate my voice, my eyes, my face, my life,

 

[Fallen_From_Grace]

Damn near everything about myself I hate.

 

[NoGameNoLife]

Some things I hate about myself:
what a socially awkward dork I am
my voice
my natural poofy hair

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

being such a coward.

 

[Norway]

My pain...

 

[Dreamwithinadream]

I hate my body. I hate being disabled. I hate having no purpose in life. I hate being a coward and not ending it all yet.