What do you feel like you "need"?

[Mint Floss]

Don't know how to explain, but, besides death, is there's anything that you think could save you- no matter how unlikely?

Just sort of out of morbid curiosity. Personally I have no idea for myself.

 

[itsgone2]

I need to start over. I don't see any way out from my current point. Just awful what Ive done.

 

[underairpressure]

Relief. Above all else, I need relief.

 

[monetpompo]

korean corndog

 

[Lamentice]

Peace, rest.

 

[Busridin'26]

Rest. Real rest. Community. Physical real tangible support.

Thats unconditional bc honestly I still barly understand the effect all the horrific long lasting abuse I've experienced has had on me. Feels like everytjme I figure it out ive fucked up a possible support.


I honestly dunno what I need anymore bc I've lost all hope that it exists but ig the point is smthin where I don't needa unconsciously & consciously shrink the impact kf abuse/trauma to access support and things that will really help me. Systems that have the time to take to support. Not rush. Not shame. Not abandoned.

Not be treated like too much for being abused. Have space to be a victim as much as ive been forced to be a survivor.

Have slace to just be withput lives pressures so I can reasonably figure out wtf I even wanna do.

(I dunno about writing this out. Might delete later but this is the truth atm so...)

 

[persepexa]

I need to start over. I don't see any way out from my current point. Just awful what Ive done.

Exact same I was just about to comment this. I need a Time Machine honestly. Nothing short of erasing my past and erasing what I did will help. I'm really sorry you're in a similar position to me. I hope you're okay.

 

[think.like]

I need to be healthy. I've had type 1 diabeties for a few years now and it's killing me from the inside out. I had potential to be someone but my blood sugars are so bad that I probably have brain damage now. Not only that I developed an eating disorder because of it and it took my only passions - dancing and singing. If there would be a cure I could live again but the only one there is isn' avaiable for everyone because it's experimental and they wouldn't accept anyone who's suicidal :/

 

[MyLifeisHell]

Nothing rooted in reality could save me

So I just need "peace"

 

[ScaredCutter]

seeing my boyfriend or a shit ton of money

 

[NoHorizon]

Physical health problems to be cured. Past trauma to be erased. A job that isn't killing me and a partner to love. All of those are completely out of reach for my present position, though. Just a pipe dream.

 

[itsgone2]

Exact same I was just about to comment this. I need a Time Machine honestly. Nothing short of erasing my past and erasing what I did will help. I'm really sorry you're in a similar position to me. I hope you're okay.

I appreciate the kinds words. I am definitely not ok. I wish I had bought and used a gun this weekend. Such a coward

 

[Lost Impact]

Money. Financial security. It could solve so many of my problems.

 

[lakefish]

rest and less crowd

 

[FuneralCry]

All I need is for the peace of non-existence to save me from this torturous, cruel and dreadful existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, there's just so much evil in existing, existence is the problem and I need peace from it.

I need to be saved from all future suffering and torture and every second is torture to exist, this existence truly is a mistake and I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, I find it do horrifying how a human can be tortured for decades longer just to face the terrible, dreadful agony of old age, existence is just so evil, it just tortures existing beings. It's just so horrific how humans cause all this terrible suffering by so tragically imposing this existence and I'll just always see the existence of life as the most terrible, devastating tragedy, only non-existence is positive for me, all I need is safety from all harm and suffering, I just need non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful and evil.

 

[(Alex)]

Love love love , i wasn't loved or hugged as a child and now i really feel super empty everyday, i believe if someone loved me fr i could have the fuel to continue my life even if its hard since i know there is someone that i can go back to and that takes care of me

 

[inkmage333]

Love. True love

 

[Thanatos.br]

I think nothing would ever solve my problems, but honestly, if i won the lotto, i could move away from my family, got back to college, work with something i like rather than because i need, it would make my life way more tolerable, maybe not happy, but enough to wait for natural death.

 

[kitsuneprime]

I also wish I had a Time Machine. So many regrets.

 

[iamnotadinosaur:(]

I would stay if I had enough money to make a positive difference in the world or if I were to be in a place where I could speak and be heard

 

[gasforme]

If I could work again and avoid homelessness then I would consider not ctb but it's moving towards me like a slow freight train of misery

 

[merlinscries]

A different body. But "God" gifted me with a disabled meat suit that can barely comprehend its immediate surroundings.

 

[DeathByBananabread]

Big friend group around my age that stayed in consistent contact & lived close enough to me that meeting up physically didn't seem like a fairytale. I haven't ever been able to make friends by approaching them by myself- online or off- so this seems to be an impossibility. I'm not too fussed anymore, I'm at least glad my death will impact fewer people.

 

[lpdsvm]

rest and less crowd

Yes agree.
Funny avatar

 

[maplebar]

I don't know.. I want to be alone

 

[lpdsvm]

If I could work again and avoid homelessness then I would consider not ctb but it's moving towards me like a slow freight train of misery

Similar. Can relate.
I still work though no issues - capable
Waiting to get fired lol
Its easy in our current world's economy.