what did u guys feel when u joined a suicide forum?

[Painted Bird]

I felt glad that my membership had been approved. It's a pro-choice suicide forum which actually seems to me like one of the most true and sane places. In opposite to the madness, stupidity, cruelty, fakeness and lies of the mainstream media.

 

[lookin4areason]

i'm glad i found this forum. it felt good to find i'm not alone. that there are so many people here feeling the same way and understand without being judged or without the whole speech of "it'll get better" bullshit. where you can freely discuss things without feeling like it's wrong. it's like how people in AA have their group to go to. well this is like mine.

 

[Pistolero114]

........ felt as if I'd been away in a foreign land all of my life and had at last found my way home......

 

[matterofwhen]

I felt cautiously-optimistic that maybe--through the community and resources here--I can find a method that will work for me, when I'm really ready.

 

[Vegrau]

A bit relieve. I can finally find the info I need.

 

[GeorgeJL]

"I want to help end suffering in the world." That was my thought.

 

[Xaphous]

I am denied everything in life so im always tilting on ending it or enduring more suffering. People here are more understandable than any therapist or doctor who only care about their paycheck.

 

[JWL]

hey,
a simple question really. i am crying. like, i feel like i am giong deeper and realer into this whole suicide thing and there might be no way back.

I thought this would be a great place to make friends for life...

 

[livingded]

More sad, it makes me think of suicide even more

 

[Tabbyql]

Relief, I'd been searching for ages for somewhere that had other people who understood. But also sad that there are other people out there that feel like this too.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

i feel like there's a real family for me the family i never had

 

[Mortalscreensaver]

hey,
a simple question really. i am crying. like, i feel like i am giong deeper and realer into this whole suicide thing and there might be no way back.

It terrifies me that this is what it's come to for me emotionally and mentally

 

[AnnonyBox]

Sad, but understood.

 

[Conflict_]

Confused, slightly scared

 

[Solek]

Made me realize how many more are on the same boat as me. I'm glad so much information about different methods is available, making the process a little bit easier and hopefully painless for the ones seeking it.

 

[MidnightCat]

Relieved. It's the first time I've ever felt even halfway understood.

That's it.

Relief.

But in my case... More closer to the fact that now I really have a way to do it.

 

[wastingpotential]

sad that i even thought about signing up. that it had come to this. that even when i felt okay in life things still dragged me down so easily that it led me here

 

[Archness]

I thought it was over before, how hopeless things where getting, the feeling of falling.

But coming here really solidified how low I got. I often come here for a little while wanting to post, but get overwhelmed by horrid emotions and just leave.

My only saving grace... is that I see reality for what it is now. It's over.

 

[WonderingSoul]

Acceptance & joy. That I wasn't alone in the thoughts I had

 

[Ernest1964]

Grateful and accepted.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Relieved that I wasn't gonna get pro-life bs thrown at me. I kept getting my msgs deleted on another depression site, and all I did was disagree with someone who said people who commit suicide are selfish-I thought that was highly offensive to people who have lost loved ones to suicide. I guess I was way too gone for these people who only had light depression and we couldn't ever talk of suicide. I kept getting into arguments with them, and it made me feel worse. It's amazing to have a place like this to not feel so alone in your thoughts.

That being said, if anyone feels this site makes their MH worse it's ok to take a break. That probably goes for most social media as well.

 

[Itz_d3p]

It kinda feels like the best thing that could happen at this moment, being able to talk about those topics that you are not in other sites. It's comforting I guess.

 

[Riu]

Surprised because I didn't think they allowed forums like this, but relieved because I can find out about a lot of methods.

 

[ekat]

honestly, i felt some sort of comfort since there are people who explain stuff with experience that is just like me. i hate it when people sugar coat and act like i need help asap

 

[CloudyNight]

Curious I guess but also it felt nice to be able to talk about my thoughts to people kinda like me

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Sad that it had to come to this.

 

[Yozo_oba]

When i joined this platform i felt releived that i was able to find a place where others would understand me and what im going through, also that i was starting to understand myself and my beleifs.
its a lil bit hard for me to explain but thats basically it.

 

[MildlyBetter]

Nervousness (ig from it becoming more "real") but also a really strong sense of relief

 

[C:\]

Peace.

 

[EnlightenedDeath]

hey,
a simple question really. i am crying. like, i feel like i am giong deeper and realer into this whole suicide thing and there might be no way back.

I was searching for methods when I stumbled across this beautiful site. After stalking around a bit, I joined and started my research on methods and came to SN. Once I decoded certain websites, I ordered my SN and Meto and it sits next to me at all times while on the computer. I was so hell bent on finding an non-messy way out that once I had the SN and Meto in my possession, a weight was lifted and was not as eager to off myself. I love reading other people positions on suicide and how many others out there are just like me.