Imaginos
Full-time layabout
- Apr 7, 2018
- 638
I'm really tired about how much people assume of my situation, like in the few times I post on other websites about what I'm going through. Those who claim that since I'm depressed, I'm therefore too mentally unfit to make any accurate statements about the state of my existence. And that, even despite the fact that I've been an agoraphobic hermit for very nearly the past 15 fucking years, they then have the gaul to think I can just somehow pull myself together, dust myself off, and go about "fixing" myself. As in; "C'mon there Mr. Sourpuss, just go for a walk and you'll feel right as rain." or "Stop being such a morbid cuck and do something with your life instead of whining.". As far as I'm concerned, it's far more insulting for someone to gaslight me with self-help bullshit, instead of simply acknowledging that everything about me is beyond any sort of help. I'd rather someone say; "Wow, it must suck to be you. I can understand why you want to kill yourself.", versus telling me to go for walks, despite being agoraphobic, or to take some stupid psychedelic drugs, despite them being poison for me, along with telling me to do a hundred and one other retarded fucking things that would have no bearing on my situation whatsoever.
It's almost ideological for people to do this. It buttresses their belief in demonstrably false ideas like freewill and crap like the just world fallacy. They don't want to admit that some people, like me, are literally just totally fucked in life. It goes against their brainwashing that tells them that they are in command of their own destiny and that everyone gets what they deserve. If they acknowledge that someone like me doesn't, then that would throw into question whether they do as well. This prevents them from ever respecting the sheer severity of my situation, since to do so would mean destroying their own flawed beliefs. Again, it's just so fucking insulting that people have the gaul to presume that my life is any way "fixable". I don't have the resources, nor the support structure necessary, nor the personality to even enjoy life as a default. Some people are too thick headed and lost up inside their own dogma ridden assholes to ever understand this. It's just frustrating is all. Anytime you try to explain this to them and they always outright refuse to listen. They claim I'm delusional, I claim they're delusional. It's a fucking circular hellhole where any hope of understanding is a foregone conclusion. God, I fucking hate this. It's all so fucking useless.
It's almost ideological for people to do this. It buttresses their belief in demonstrably false ideas like freewill and crap like the just world fallacy. They don't want to admit that some people, like me, are literally just totally fucked in life. It goes against their brainwashing that tells them that they are in command of their own destiny and that everyone gets what they deserve. If they acknowledge that someone like me doesn't, then that would throw into question whether they do as well. This prevents them from ever respecting the sheer severity of my situation, since to do so would mean destroying their own flawed beliefs. Again, it's just so fucking insulting that people have the gaul to presume that my life is any way "fixable". I don't have the resources, nor the support structure necessary, nor the personality to even enjoy life as a default. Some people are too thick headed and lost up inside their own dogma ridden assholes to ever understand this. It's just frustrating is all. Anytime you try to explain this to them and they always outright refuse to listen. They claim I'm delusional, I claim they're delusional. It's a fucking circular hellhole where any hope of understanding is a foregone conclusion. God, I fucking hate this. It's all so fucking useless.
