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Zoro1029

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Mar 15, 2025
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My niece is 2 years old and I will never see what type of person she grows up to be. I am a huge Knicks fan and will never see them win an NBA championship. My favorite mangas Kingdom and Hajime no Ippo I will not be there for the ending of. I will never experience a fulfilling romantic relationship.
 
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rainw3rld4ngel

︻デ═一
Sep 13, 2023
52
pretty much nothing from the life that i have to work with now.
maybe there were things that could have come from a different branch in the past, but i cant actually think of any real decisions i could have made at any point that may have lead to any better outcome. and anything that lead to a conclusion seems to me to have had a 'positive" outcome, in a way.

for almost two years ive had this on my mind in a serious way, (beyond just ideation while trying, as it would have been in the past), and so for a real length of time ive even thought about if there was any meaningful or cool thing i could do before going. theres a bladee lyrics where he says 'i just need one moment' and ive had that on my mind. but for example, if i bought ice cream and ate that somewhere on my own, i dont think i would enjoy that. and most things are like that for the same reasons. the best thing i could think of seemed to be playing a videogame in late 2023.
as for right now, i did briefly get into the playtest for Space Station 14 (a remake of a really weird online game called space station 13) and i think if i had more time i would have enjoyed that a bit more. but i cant in the state of mind im in right now anyway.

i think against the odds, if somehow in my life i met someone who was also interested in like weird music (or just a common shared interest like the above i guess), then even so, even after those 1 in a million odds, they in turn probably wouldnt be able to see a reason of their own to talk to me. while there are lots of things making the above really unlikely in the first place, and more just a concern from my past, i dont even think it would have helped cause they probably wouldn't be as isolated as me, & me liking something cool or whatever isnt really enough benefit for me to be added to anyone else's life. i could show interest in the things they might otherwise want to talk about, but they wouldnt see a reason to talk about it to me. (and now for me its the same anyway) (& i did play an instrument, this wasnt just about being a listener..)

i took a first year music class at uni recently and someone liked ed sheeran and another person liked jacob collier. if ur not a nerd like me maybe u dont understand why thats funny (but it is honestly really funny). so the first part of meeting someone is a 0.01% chance and the second part of them talking to me is multiplying by another 0.01% chance. but i have so many other bigger problems that make it all impossible anyway, in the past as well as now, it doesnt even matter anymore.

i enjoyed listening to music while i experienced it, and i experienced a Lot of it in some brief final NEEThood. but its 2025 now and my head is empty

lots of different things have flashed before my eyes at times, but my brain feels fried, like those parts might not even be properly working anymore at the real event its meant for.
i wonder if my final moments will be painful & stretch the seconds into years, if my survival instinct will be kicking in, and if so, if i might still feel deathly bored in the back of my mind


Overall, i wish i met more people so that there might have been something to miss




(as usual when i type a lot i feel like im interrupting, like taking over someone elses thread, but i was mostly on topic here or giving background info i guess, sorry..)
 
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ALonelyFreak

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Dec 7, 2024
55
What it feels like to be neurotypical even for a day. How do the neurotypicals think? How does it feel like to instantly understand social cues? How does it feel to not care about discomfort? Cuz neurotypicals seem to never be bothered by highly uncomfortable things such as clothing, chairs etc.
And also I'll probably never have good legs that don't fail me if I don't give them special attention and in general I won't have a body that doesn't require gentle care.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,243
Sometimes I wonder about all the future films, games, music etc. I may miss out on. Still, that will happen one day regardless when I die. Plus, I doubt I'll have the capacity to regret anything once I'm dead. While it's intriguing- what may lay ahead, I'm not convinced it's good enough to want to stick around for.

I suspect there are a lot of places I would have liked to visit. Still again- it's that whole: nice but, nice enough? Probably not.

I think at one point, people were very important in my life. So many of them have already died now though and, I'm estranged from most of the others. So, I suppose it's selfish but true at the same time: While I only wish the best for their futures, I don't feel the need or desire to be around to witness them.

It's kind of good though, it makes me feel at ease with the decision to leave at least.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Traveling the world. I would love to see beautiful nature everywhere (and some man-made things) but I do not have the money to do that nor will I ever. I have also lost my zest for life and I do not think I would have the same appreciation when seeing nature.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,901
I wouldn't as I'd personally be relieved to never exist ever again, I just don't wish to experience anything at all rather I just want peace from the cruelty, suffering and torture of existing and no matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with all finally gone and forgotten about. I find it a futile, torturous burden having to exist at all, for me non-existence really is all that is positive and desirable but more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence I personally always saw as a mistake at all.
 
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Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
107
I won't be able to see people's reaction on my death and it gives me fomo hahaha
 
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Michi_Violeta

M.A. in Heartbreak and Motorsports
Feb 3, 2025
449
My dreams come true. Running an 11 second pass at my local track with my car, living with a partner, kissing my ex and hearing her laugh again as I step on the gas...

It'll also be hard not seeing my nephew grow up. I could've taught that kid some stuff, English, German, how to write an article, how to heel and toe a manual transmission car.
 
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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
327
living together with someone who love and cherish me, that won't happen
 
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fadinggirl

fadinggirl

Member
Dec 25, 2024
87
my wedding, ive been planning it my whole life, my friends weddings, my graduation, my little sisters entire future. my career. so many dreams i wanted to make come true. theres so much i wanted to do.
 
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MathConspiracy

Trying to get better
Mar 25, 2025
235
Being a famous writer and THEN dying of suicide. I've always imagined myself becoming a famous artist, shocking the world with my suicide, a bit like Chester did.
 
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Zoro1029

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Mar 15, 2025
64
Being a famous writer and THEN dying of suicide. I've always imagined myself becoming a famous artist, shocking the world with my suicide, a bit like Chester did.
I actually wanted to write comics myself. I was getting into drawing and looking up a bunch of online courses.

I felt like I had good ideas for a story but even as a hobby it wouldve been enjoyable. I feel i lost the spark for it dont know if it will ever come back
 
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Gabriel Kostyukov

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Dec 8, 2024
10
I missed out on teen romance and every time I think about it I get a really bad anxiety attack
 
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dead-orchids

dead-orchids

ready to go
Apr 15, 2025
11
I'm sad I'll never travel out of my timezone. And I've always wanted to see the ocean on the other side of the country.

But honestly, I'll take never being able to travel again if it means I also don't need to feel all this pain ever again.
 
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x3la

x3la

Member
Feb 8, 2025
23
Going to university right after high school, and experiencing student life, figuring things out while being surrounded by people the same age in the same situation. I wasn't eligible for uni after HS, and even if i was, Covid put a stop to all of the fun activities :/
 

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