What amends to you intend to make before you take your finals?

[Bend Sinister]

There is a common theme around here about planning. Planning for the big day and all the preparation that goes into it.

Mine will be about making amends a far as I am able. This may be just a call to someone to have a final conversation and maybe close out a few things. Maybe a favour I needed to have done. Maybe its just giving a book back, I borrowed and never read. Some little and some not so little.

Anyone else think this or is it now too late or even just pointless. I just want to give the people I leave behind a bit of peace and closure. I am leaving people behind and I know this. They wont understand but they will move and accept it and time heals.

I was also going to record a song for my children to play on their birthdays. Stash it on a memory stick. Too selfish and painful? A song from a corpse who despite his best endeavours didn't stay dead. Seems a bad idea now I think of it and actually terrible. Ok if I checked out through illness I think but I`m crashing the birthday I disinvited myself too.

Covid-19 I`m here. They won`t ever suspect and then people can understand, accept, grieve and move on.

So can I.

I can leave this husk, this nightmare of a life that I created.

Kiss me for luck, one last time....

 

[niloc]

I have a bit of money saved up. I would probably like to transfer that to my girlfriend before I act, but realistically, my act would probably be too impulsive. I honestly don't know if/what would set off that final time and I act. With no will, etc... who knows as the state would take over everything...

 

[Bend Sinister]

I have a bit of money saved up. I would probably like to transfer that to my girlfriend before I act, but realistically, my act would probably be too impulsive. I honestly don't know if/what would set off that final time and I act. With no will, etc... who knows as the state would take over everything...

So that creates an amend you cant. Having a will is easy and needed not just in this place. Have a look online. Real easy.