whar are some of the most valueable things that you have lost in life?

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Chronic pain from lupus rewired my brain. Stripped me of my emotions, caused my moral compass to malfunction, and turned the love and respect I had for life into contempt and hatred.

 

[fastgoodcheap]

My first baby. I died when she died.

 

[Peter1976]

My wife. I pushed her away because I am an absolute idiot. Now I want to kill myself, because I cannot rectify my wrong.

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

Hope.

 

[the_final_countdown]

Chronic pain from lupus rewired my brain. Stripped me of my emotions, caused my moral compass to malfunction, and turned the love and respect I had for life into contempt and hatred.

I'm sorry. Lupus seems to affect people to varying degrees.

I wish mine was bad enough to kill me.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

I'm sorry. Lupus seems to affect people to varying degrees.

I wish mine was bad enough to kill me.

Greetings fellow Lupie! Is yours SLE as well?

Over the years I've had painful, swollen joints. On one hand I'm thankful there's no organ damage (came very close), but on the other hand I have no valid reason to apply for assisted suicide.

 

[notsure04]

I lost my Beyblade.
I basically lost everything BUT my sense of humor. Its the only thing I still have with me.

 

[Sslsh]

Mine:

1. mother - died
2. dog - euthanized due to bi-lateral hip dysplasia
3. best friend - died
4. x girlfriend (left her for petty reasons, she was actually a good gf)
5. I have also lost a lot of time due to procrastination, and i mean a lot.
6. I guess I have also lost the ability to function without medication due to physical dependence.

how about you?

Confidence.

 

[the_final_countdown]

Greetings fellow Lupie! Is yours SLE as well?

Over the years I've had painful, swollen joints. On one hand I'm thankful there's no organ damage (came very close), but on the other hand I have no valid reason to apply for assisted suicide.

That's what the blood tests say. My joints hurt and scar tissue develops. Thing is I know what caused mine.

Low gut diversity caused by switching to a carnivore diet, causing an infestation by bad bacteria and leaky gut. Caused me to take medication which had a terrible effect on me and here we are. Funny.

It affects my hearing too. So I'm always dizzy and hear ringing in my ears.

Really desperate to end my life.

 

[OblivionSeeker]

I think I've lost my ability to love life. I've seen what life can do to people, and it has hurt me enough already. I kind of hate reality now, and I view it almost as a kind of enemy somehow. Like, how dare it produce all this suffering? There could be no appropriate justification for it, ever. Which moron allowed this program be allowed to run, producing these horrific results.

I can relate to these feelings. I hate life. I want to leave so bad.

 

[angelwings]

the most valuable thing I have lost by far is my girlfriend, she died along with my will to live now. I can't think of anything else that can really compare to that that I have lost. The only thing keeping me alive is my dog and my mom because I know it would devastate them. My motivation is gone, living feels painful now and it's hard for me to feel positive about life anymore. I just wish I could join her or at least end this suffering if anything already.

 

[A Desperate Fool]

• My dad (died in a car crash about a year ago)
• My wife (left me right after Christmas)

 

[Marktheghost]

Friends
Time
Money

I've never had much else. And not had much in terms of friends and money.

 

[TessB]

I had an abortion aged 17. That loss never goes away,

 

[Lady black]

My will to live and my love

 

[whywere]

My best friend ever in 1982, yep I am old! when i was having alot of problems money, mental health..etc, he always helped with no judgement ever. I miss you forever Don!! Walter

 

[BeanyBoo]

Pets, many beloved pets.

My health

 

[DarkWolf]

My dog. I lost her last month.
I really miss my dog.

 

[JigsawFeelin]

my two most recent exes were lost for stupid reasons.
One was the love of my life and I let my mental health wreck it, the other was someone I could see myself spending my life with and I let my mental health wreck it.
You can also attach friends I made with them/through them to them as well, I guess.
But as I've aged a bit, I've come to realise people stay if they want to and sitting around crying because your friend has 'chosen your ex over you' is really a complete waste of time.

 

[D11FER]

Lost the love of my life who I was with since the age of 15 (I'm now 46) lost the respect of my children!
lost my career (30 years building reputation)
Lost my company I created 2 years ago
Lost my dignity and self worth
Lost my pride
Lost my spark
Lost my reasons to live
When I list it all it's a wonder I'm still here

 

[Windflower]

My mom
my two cats
the home I grew up in - my father sold it without telling me, so everything that I still had there (my letters, my poems, my books...), together with the things from my mom and my grandparents, are lost too....and all the happy memories, already scarce, are now too tinged with the pain of loss and suffering...
the love of my life ( she betrayed me - because obviously I´m not good enough to love)
my youth, which I spend working for my father, a narcissist who made life hell for my mom, my little brother and me. But I needed to stay and work and protect my mom.
my dreams - because of my father...and now I´m too old....
my creativity

Never had anything to lose to begin with

I sometimes think that it is strange, that things we never had can hurt too...
I think I would have liked to have a real family.... and I miss the father that I didn´t have and the friends with which to plot adventures...and that hurts too

 

[A Desperate Fool]

the love of my life ( she betrayed me - because obviously I´m not good enough to love)

Mine betrayed me too. It really fucked me up. But she was what made life worth living. She made me want to wake up each day. Now I've got nothing.

 

[gus.nixon]

About 500 bitcoin when Silk Road went down

 

[Windflower]

Mine betrayed me too. It really fucked me up. But she was what made life worth living. She made me want to wake up each day. Now I've got nothing.

I´m very sorry to hear that. Beeing left by someone whom around you wanted to build your future is hard enough... but beeing betrayed fells like suddenly the rules of the Universe don´t apply anymore and nothing makes sense, you can´t be sure of your own thoughts anymore and how should you know that the sun will get up tomorrow (maybe it wont) and that the Eifeltower really exists (maybe it dosen´t), ...your map of references completly busted.....
It´s been a few years....I was angry, then tried to forget her, but realised that I still love her ( or the image of her anyway) and often enough think of what I did wrong and why I wasn´t enough....If I hadn´t been so shy (she was my first girlfriend - I´m bi) , so clingy, weren´t so fat, had more discipline to work on that.....
Were you together a long time?

 

[A Desperate Fool]

suddenly the rules of the Universe don´t apply anymore and nothing makes sense, you can´t be sure of your own thoughts anymore

So very true. I don't trust anyone anymore. Not even myself.

It´s been a few years....I was angry, then tried to forget her, but realised that I still love her

I try to get angry at her but it only makes me angry at myself because I know I still love her. I can't forget her. She was my best friend and all of my greatest memories were with her. (Speaking of the Eiffel Tower, I got to see it with her! It was amazing!)

Were you together a long time?

8 years. She was my first love. My only love.

 

[DownfallEnlightened]

only person ive ever loved and still love
wont ever feel the same again
regret is slowly killing me

 

[WaitingForTheBusInTh]

My aspirations. People keeping asking me what I want to do, I just dont have an answer anymore. I dont have any aspirations anymore. No jobs interest me, and I know I'll never own a house. I'm just going through the motions enough to support myself at the basest level

 

[LONE WOLF.]

In 1982, yep, I am old! 65 to be exact!!, I watched as my best friend ever drown. He was challenged to swim across a small lake with ice chuncks still floating on it and if he did a gal would make him very happy (sex and lots of it) he got half way cross and went under and drown and I was on the shore. I can not swim and/or hardly get in a shower and that was the 1st time that state troopers were called and had a apb (all points bulletin) put out on me and 1st time with mental health people. Still miss him ALOT over 39 years later. Walter

Walter, l am so sorry to read about the loss of your friend, during our lives we are lucky if we get to meet just one special Friend, (in 1982 l was 10-years old) Sending you a Hug Walter:-)

 

[whywere]

Walter, l am so sorry to read about the loss of your friend, during our lives we are lucky if we get to meet just one special Friend, (in 1982 l was 10-years old) Sending you a Hug Walter:-)

Hi @Lone wolf . THANK YOU so, so much for the hug. It REALLY means alot to me knowing I have GREAT global family members like you @Lone wolf. You are a young person with so much love, caring, kindness. empathy and SUPPORT that made me know and feel that I am not alone in this crappy world. Again, THANK YOU and Yes you made my late Saturday night, it is 1:36am on 04.04.21 so, MUCH better for me. My heart is bursting with love and happiness knowing that I have you and the rest of the loving global family here!!!! Walter

 

[Bigpink]

Wife, child, home, my future