Were you failed or did you fail yourself?

[Soutaiseiriron]

There is just something wrong with me.

 

[PanaxMan]

Wondering if you think that your suicidality is the result of other people/bad genetics or your own poor decision making. I think it's a mix of both for me, personally. I made one really bad decision that forced me into having to CTB but I also suffered a lot due to external factors prior to that.

I was failed. My parents couldn't keep up with everyone else and destroyed my social life.

 

[RadiantNumber]

My whole life is failure

 

[coolcow1289]

Both. I wasn't able to overcome my biology and genetics which make me extremely susceptible to OCD and anxiety. I failed there. But my parents also didn't raise me with the support structures - religion, church, community, healthy social values, etc. that could allow me to weather this. And when I die, they won't have those support structures themselves.

 

[Bismillah6925]

Partly genetics: I mean, the whole autism, depression, anxiety, OCD, comes from somewhere, and that's somewhere in the DNA. Adds a few difficulty levels.

Partly nuture: Dad and Mom didn't really do their best with me and I spent my live trying to earn their love, which of course, leads to own issues.

Partly culture: Everyone has best friends and friends they do stuff with, and I'm always the afterthought. Never the first choice.

Partly my mistakes: I do things wrong and it's always my fault. Everyone else can be happy and do their lives well, but I can't.

Partly bad luck: Seriously? That's a problem now too?

All of these factors combined, you get Captain Suicidal!

 

[mistysmile966]

Life has failed me, life had so many chances to give me a break but rouged me up each time.

 

[tomame]

both