Venting Were you abused by family?

[The Disqualified]

I was born into a very dysfunctional family. My mother is a narc who abused me physically and emotionally since the early days. She is very incompetent as a mother, and I say this with all respect and fairness. She failed me in so many ways and made me suffer so many horrible situations I can't even put into words. She is a big reason why I was disqualified so soon, there was no support whatsoever. I know she suffered a lot as well but can't bring myself to empathize with her much.
My Father is an enabler and completely absent on an emotional level. He really is a stranger to me.
I dislike both my parents and want to run away from them.
I have no connection to anyone else really. No big family or family events. I always wondered what was wrong with my family even at an early age, now I know.

I consider myself an orphan. I never had a stable or healthy family. My family hurt me so much. All I want is to run away from them forever. I don't want to see them ever again. Every day is torture, and I need to find peace. Peace.

 

[TraurigerClown]

Cant tell much about my early years, but at around first grade my father died and my mother almost immidiatly married my stepdad. He was a pedo, i think nothing more to be said....

 

[CatLvr]

I was born into a very dysfunctional family. My mother is a narc who abused me physically and emotionally since the early days. She is very incompetent as a mother, and I say this with all respect and fairness. She failed me in so many ways and made me suffer so many horrible situations I can't even put into words. She is a big reason why I was disqualified so soon, there was no support whatsoever. I know she suffered a lot as well but can't bring myself to empathize with her much.
My Father is an enabler and completely absent on an emotional level. He really is a stranger to me.
I dislike both my parents and want to run away from them.
I have no connection to anyone else really. No big family or family events. I always wondered what was wrong with my family even at an early age, now I know.

I consider myself an orphan. I never had a stable or healthy family. My family hurt me so much. All I want is to run away from them forever. I don't want to see them ever again. Every day is torture, and I need to find peace. Peace.

I could have written this word for word. Except my parents had WAY more children than any sane couple would have. And I was the scapegoat for my mom to always feel good about popping out another kid -- she had them, it was someone else's job (mine) to take care of them. I haven't had any contact with ANYONE in my family since I was in my late 30s. The single greatest thing I ever did for myself was going no contact with those people. ALL of them ...