Venting we do have rope, but i can't find it

[sighplus10]

really bummed out right now. a few weeks ago i saw the bag of ropes that we have and i figured "ill take it for the tourniquet method when i want to ctb at that moment" but now when i want it its not there. i've looked everywhere i could in the house without raising suspicion but now im not sure what to do. some said for this method even shoe laces can work, is that true? i thought they would be quite short for it

 

[FuneralCry]

I have never really heard of that method. I can imagine that it must be frustrating going through that. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I know that this life is unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I wish you the best in whatever happens.