Watching ctb videos

[rachybee]

I just watched the thread on here with partial hanging ctb videos. And - I feel weird. I don't feel bad or upset? Like I feel bad they felt they had to go like that.

But it's an odd feeling? Like oh shit THATS how i do it. Not like I've tried.

And I feel a sense of calm that I can go like that too. If my SN doesn't get here in time.

Anyone else seen them and feel the same?

 

[J&L383]

Watched a couple. At first it was kind of weird but then it didn't seem so bad. It did make that method seem more doable. I'd probably still prefer SN but I don't have any.

 

[Worndown]

While they are a bit strange, they are also a record left for us by the departed.

 

[rachybee]

That's true

 

[maggot]

I just watched the thread on here with partial hanging ctb videos.

Link please? Tried searching but didn't find it

 

[lawlietsph]

Yes I think I watched the same videos as you. At first, I was scared because I don't usually watch these kind of things. Made me want to throw up a little bit. But when I looked past that, I was like "OOOOOH so THIS is where I was doing the partial hanging completely wrong!"
I've learned a lot from those videos and now I feel more confident in doing it.
I still feel sorry for all of them, they must've been so depressed and done with this world... But it doesn't hurt for them anymore and that's what matters, they are finally in peace. Even if their dead bodies look a tiny bit scary to me.

 

[death_bed221]

The hanging videos made me feel bad but that video of the girl taking sn made me feel peaceful. That is why its my method

 

[rachybee]

The hanging videos made me feel bad but that video of the girl taking sn made me feel peaceful. That is why its my method

I've not found that one

 

[death_bed221]

I've not found that one

I still think its here somewhere. Just search "sn video" or something like that. I think its the only video of a sn suicide.