Discussion Was 2019 a good year for you?

[enjoy]

no. it was terrible. only good part was going off to college. i met a few friends and got to experience a few new things. that's it.

 

[porfin1234]

This year nothing bad happened
I did the worst thing imaginable followed by a series of really bad decisions that will cost me thousands.
I made the impulsive decisions to leave a job I loved, took paycut, moved from dream city, for no good reason, and made a mess of my life. Especially horrible after doing SO well and blossoming for the first time just to destroy it all within months. I must be one of the dumbest people on earth.

 

[BlueWidow]

Worst year ever. The love of my life died. I hope 2020 is my last.

I am so sorry for your loss. The love of my life died in 2017, so I completely understand how you feel. If you ever want to talk, I'm here.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Nope. Fucking nightmare. And I know 2020 will be worse

 

[StillWaiting]

Nah it wasn't. Everyday I am wondering why do I even bother trying. Too tired to be alive but have no energy to plan my escape.

 

[lowres]

2019 has been my worst year alive i am somewhat optimistic for 2020 though

 

[Eternal Pessimist]

I haven't had good years or even good months for a while, but relative to previous years most of the first half of 2019 was bearable I guess. The second half has been awful though.

 

[TheblueBunny]

I've surprisingly had one of the best years of my life along with 2018. It did begin to worsen around August, but I'm still trying not to lose hope, though it is difficult.

2020 is meant to be a year of change for me, I'll be moving to a different area and all sorts of other things!

The more I think about it 2019 was a pretty shitty year after August. My father kicked me out, my mother said I'm ruining her life (way to go, telling a suicidal person, right?) and I lost all my friends. I still have hope, it's naive but it's the only thing I have left.

I hope everyone else on here gets some relief!

 

[Moonicide]

Yes and no. I lost a lot, but also gained a lot in the process... I was able to go out there and experience life a bit more. I laughed, I cried, and I loved. I think this year was one of the few good ones I have had, as well as the most painful ones.

 

[peacefully31425]

2019 was one of the worst tears of my life but not as bad as 2018. I guess that's progress.

 

[ARW3N]

The only good year for me will be the year I die.

 

[JustAnotherSuicider]

Almost whole year was quite good for me, I was happy. But it ended horribly and thanks to that it is officially the worst year in my life. I hope that 2020 will be my last year on this miserable world. I just don't have any strength left to fight anymore. I given up on life.

 

[mathieu]

It's been a nightmare.

 

[Epsilon0]

I've had worse years, but 2019 has been the first time I actually stood face to face with the very real possibility of suicide. It has caused a profound and irreverssible change in me. After this, there is no going back to life as I once knew it.

 

[Flume]

Looking at it objectively, this year I...

• Finally moved out of parent's house
• Was brave enough to go out by myself to concerts I enjoyed
• Stopped self-harming as frequently as I used to
• Met people at my new jobs who are close to my age and don't entirely hate me
• Got better at spending my time on a hobby instead of browsing the internet for hours

...all of which is an improvement from last year.

Ultimately though 99% of the time life just sucks and it's going to be like that every year.

You tried, and you saw positive results what more can you ask for that's great!

 

[Flau]

I don't even know what to reply to this.

I finished school, but never got a chance of going to uni.
I got a certificate of graduation, yet I've lost it recently.
I had fun with my few "friends", but now they are gone.
I got a job but had to quit because I was bullied there.
I got closer to my bf, but he abuses me nowadays.
I got further away from my family and siblings.
I got better at piano impro, but can't play anymore.

And so on so forth. I had many things that I enjoyed... but everything fell apart as always. As expected.

 

[puppy9]

Yes, I found this site.

 

[porfin1234]

Almost whole year was quite good for me, I was happy. But it ended horribly and thanks to that it is officially the worst year in my life. I hope that 2020 will be my last year on this miserable world. I just don't have any strength left to fight anymore. I given up on life.

i feel you
Started out awesome
Made worst life decision of my life
Ruined.

I've had worse years, but 2019 has been the first time I actually stood face to face with the very real possibility of suicide. It has caused a profound and irreverssible change in me. After this, there is no going back to life as I once knew it.

same!!

 

[WaitingAround2Die]

It started badly...
got worse...
then seemed to pick up...
except by the time I realised that the 'pick up' was fake it was too late...
hence now suicidal

 

[BabyYoda]

It wasn't good, but it wasn't bad either. The last few months were the absolute worst and they are so far the worst months in my entire lifetime. Don't know how much longer I'll last.......

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Probably the worst year to date. But there's always next year. Still don't know how long I'll be around so maybe it'll be the last.

 

[k75]

It was the most challenging year of my life and easily in my top 3 worst. But somehow I've managed to survive it. I wonder for how long?

 

[Demonbait93]

Worst year of my life.

 

[NotMeant2B]

Nearly everything was terrible, and even though I've been through a few good things, I didn't enjoyed them at all. I'd rather be dead than recover my happiness; I think that says it all.

 

[PwincessStepford]

One of my worst years yet :') possibly THE worst one. Few good things came of it.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

depends in what context as it being the worst, but for me , my first mental breakdown leading to suicide attempts make's it a pretty fucked up year!

Bit of an odd question to ask on this forum wouldn't you say lmao

Not really, someone could have had the worst year in 2018, and struggled through 2019 whilst finding the answer to what they do next

 

[OrangeLounge]

My worst year objectively as it was the first full one without having my mom. I graduated and got a boyfriend and stuff though, so that helps a little. Also went to therapy and got back on antidepressants.
Overall, I'm alive, and that's all I can really ask for.

 

[Bleak Stoic]

Oh no... it was a terrible year.

 

[exhausted]

Hell no.

 

[TAW122]

I had overall a fairly decent year, but it still sucked at times too. I had two major times where I would have CTB'd had things not gone favorably for me. Once in March 2019, I went to meet the ladyfriend I was referring to. Had my interaction with her gone sour or turned abysmal, I would have CTB'd in May 2019. Then another time, in October 2019, I went to Amsterdam in hopes of losing my virginity and had I come home still a virgin (meaning failing so hard that even sex workers reject me - which they would be well within their rights to), I'd not be here in 2020. I would have CTB'd sometime near Christmas of 2019.

Also, my 2019 ended negatively, due to life changes, and also some bad relations with the ladyfriend person I was referring to.