Wanting to CTB without a reason?

[Jade10666]

Does anybody here find they want to CTB but have no other reason that would justify it other than you want to do it? I have had a good home, relatively good parents and friends, but I find myself planning my CTB and probably will go through with it.

Anyone else just feel it's the right thing to do - to have no future at all?

 

[FishRain3469]

I have numerous reasons. ( even though I often feel like they aren't valid or bad enough) , but I completely understand what you mean. Especially with good friends, family, home, etc..

It can all be sooo fckn confusing and DownRight maddening to say the least. You are not alone. Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen.

 

[loser4ever4life]

I think most people would say I have my shit together from the outside (school, partner, friends, extra curriculars) but it's all so draining and I hate myself every day. The mind is a funny thing.

I've felt I've had a good time yet every day I still think ctb is the only way forward