Walking to the bridge was a wake up call.

[VileMagnolia]

As I've discussed before, drowning is the method I've found comfort in despite how grisly it would be. I had a very upsetting evening relationship wise and started having a panic attack. I ended up taking long walk to a bay, listening to music, sipping an energy drink on the way and vibing nicely trying to relax. I wasn't planning to actually go through with anything. I just wanted to see the water and take comfort in knowing that if I really wanted to, I could come back and try there. I reached the bay but the water was fenced off and I didn't wanna have to walk around the fences so I just started walking on the bridge.

I was then hit with dread upon seeing how dark it was. It was darker than expected, the air was cold and the water would obviously be much much colder. Thinking about sinking into black, freezing water, was haunting. I got choked up a bit, and started walking back home. Honestly, I still see it as a last resort option, but I have much, much more pause now. I'm not necessary feeling more motivation to live, just more pain knowing that if I die this way, it would be miserable and having much less of a comforting feeling.

 

[InevitableDeath]

Get your drugs right first, then if you can do the ocean, that will be beautiful.

My skull might be an octopus home. (tbh it already is)

 

[VileMagnolia]

Get your drugs right first, then if you can do the ocean, that will be beautiful.

My skull might be an octopus home. (tbh it already is)

I'm both scared and fascinated with sea critters. I wouldn't mind them making use of my body, but I'd probably be fished out by humans before that stage. I just don't wanna jump in the water and see a big ass shark. That would be terrorizing.
As for drugs, that would def help. I was thinking of just using compressed air to knock myself out, but I would likely be better off creating a varied cocktail of stuff.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Drowning in coldass water--NOT my method

 

[lpdsvm]

When I walk on the bridge I stop and look snd think to jump. But I don't walk there to attempt. Just for different vibes. That one maybe a bit.