Waking up is the most awful, horrifying feeling ever

[iloverachel]

Waking up is the absolute worst, most horrifying thing ever. Being conscious and awake is the worst, knowing the suffering in this hellish, torturous world starts all over again. Eternal sleep would be the best

 

[Meteora]

I relate ;-(......

 

[Time4Peace]

What has a beginning has an end. Gravity always wins. What doesn't have a beginning, doesn't have an end (love).
One way or another we will get our peace, and more than that, love! That's at least what I believe in.

 

[LunarLight]

I relate so much. Sleeping is my only way out. For the moment...

 

[galway4sam]

Yes I too hate waking up but I can't sleep anyway.

It reminds me of a song where the lyrics are:
"I've been searching for an exit, but I'm lost inside my head
Where I spend every waking moment wishing I was dead"

 

[BlendedHeart]

Become insomniac is a great fear of mine. That's why I take care of my sleeping cycle the best I can. Losing the only time of the day where I feel at peace would make of this life a bigger nightmare.

 

[iloverachel]

Become insomniac is a great fear of mine. That's why I take care of my sleeping cycle the best I can. Losing the only time of the day where I feel at peace would make of this life a bigger nightmare.

I have great sympathy for those who have insomnia or struggle to get good amounts of sleep. Not only does lack of sleep worsen mental health issues, it means being more tim being conscious and awake in this world.

 

[Pluto]

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I agree. I wish I could be asleep... forever

 

[FuneralCry]

I also find it so incredibly dreadful to wake up, I'm tired of suffering in this existence that was always so futile and undesirable in the first place, it's such a devastating tragedy how there isn't the option to just fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep.
All I wish for is to never wake again, all that'd be ideal for me is the peace of death solving everything, I find it beautiful to think of this existence permanently disappearing into nothingness, I'd certainly always prefer to not exist no matter what.

 

[hopeless08]

Waking up is the absolute worst, most horrifying thing ever. Being conscious and awake is the worst, knowing the suffering in this hellish, torturous world starts all over again. Eternal sleep would be the best

I agrée for me waking up in the morning is absolute torture, realizing that your situation/ life wasn't a nightmare, it's reality and it slaps you in the face.
The idea that you have to go through another day of agony and trying so hard to do the simplest of tasks, takes an unbelievable amount of effort

 

[hellispink]

I know that horrible feeling. Waking up and feeling trapped as soon as I open my eyes, dreading existing, feeling tight in my chest because of the pain it causes me, i dont wish this hell on nobody.

 

[bipbapbop]

I hate waking up. It feels like pile of bricks crashing down on me. It's so painful.

 

[billie]

I don't want to wake up anymore

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Same here. Very hard to get to sleep and waking up is nightmare.
I want to CTB already, this is unbearable.

 

[uzuf86]

To me, the idea that you want to go out but the fact that there is no way to just "turn yourself off" in a second is dreadful and awful

 

[Illegal Preclear]

My daily sentiments EXACTLY. I spend half the day sleeping now. I have this weird thing where I'm not disabled in my dreams. Mentally or physically. I have ALL my faculties magically back, I can experience joy and wonder - the way a neurotypical, able bodied human is supposed to experience life. And then I wake up and I'm back to this. Completely non-functional. Every time I wake up, it's the Hellish realization that I'm disabled for the rest of my existence in this brain and body. I like to think that when I finally give this body and brain the fate it deserves - through a noose or bullet, maybe I'll go to that 'dreamworld' forever.

 

[LostSoul1965]

I relate so much. Sleeping is my only way out. For the moment...

Mine too ...I didn't choose this. No matter what I do I can't make myself feel better. I have givin up trying.

 

[beardyoldcorpse]

Waking up is the absolute worst, most horrifying thing ever. Being conscious and awake is the worst, knowing the suffering in this hellish, torturous world starts all over again. Eternal sleep would be the best

Yep…sleeping is my only release from pain…I go to sleep with the help of br@ndy and sleeping tablets every night hoping I won't wake up . Unfortunately I do…and have to face another day. The only thing that keeps me going is fear of damaging my grandchildren. If I passed away in my sleep it would be such a relief and avoid any guilt!

 

[YosemiteGrrl]

My daily sentiments EXACTLY. I spend half the day sleeping now. I have this weird thing where I'm not disabled in my dreams. Mentally or physically. I have ALL my faculties magically back, I can experience joy and wonder - the way a neurotypical, able bodied human is supposed to experience life. And then I wake up and I'm back to this. Completely non-functional. Every time I wake up, it's the Hellish realization that I'm disabled for the rest of my existence in this brain and body. I like to think that when I finally give this body and brain the fate it deserves - through a noose or bullet, maybe I'll go to that 'dreamworld' forever.

I am the same. Dreams are my only reality. And I am whole and functional and then I 'wake up' to a living unbearable, indescribable horror of 'existence.'

 

[Azora]

For me it's sort of the opposite. When I wake up is when I am the least depressed, at night before I go to bed is when it is at its worst. Perhaps it is dopamine.