Waiting to say Goodbye to that one person ❤️

[Sad.boi.lol.]

Dumb me caught feelings for a guy I have been Hooking up with since March. I know he really doesn't care and I have to ctb tonight but I want to say goodbye and don't know how :( I could always Snapchat him but I don't want to bother him and at the same time I wish I could say goodbye in person. Really don't know what to do :(

 

[Worndown]

A dilemma. Might I ask why you must leave tonight?
You could mail him a note. That is personal at least.
You could be vague when telling him you have to go. If he believes you are moving suddenly, that is ok. It will work itself out soon enough.

 

[Sad.boi.lol.]

Basically failed school due to my suicide attempt last year that landed me two weeks in the hospital. So I'm ctbing because I haven't felt the same and school has started but I missed two weeks due to my classes being messed up from last year and having to repeat them. I finally had hope tho because my family got an attorney who is fighting with the school for me however I was suppose to go back on Thursday when I'll my friends turned their back on me :( I got text all throughout the night from random people at the school telling me not to go back and I'm just really over it. Wish I could see him tho he doesn't know how much he helps
He already knows too that I want to ctb and I'm planning on it. I'm just out of time

 

[GeorgeJL]

Basically failed school due to my suicide attempt last year that landed me two weeks in the hospital. So I'm ctbing because I haven't felt the same and school has started but I missed two weeks due to my classes being messed up from last year and having to repeat them. I finally had hope tho because my family got an attorney who is fighting with the school for me however I was suppose to go back on Thursday when I'll my friends turned their back on me :( I got text all throughout the night from random people at the school telling me not to go back and I'm just really over it. Wish I could see him tho he doesn't know how much he helps
He already knows too that I want to ctb and I'm planning on it. I'm just out of time

IMO that probably isn't reason enough to commit suicide by itself since you still so young (assuming your young). You can get a job working in the middle class and still live a meaningful life. There are plenty of jobs you can get without a college degree, check out trade schools, apprenticeships. etc.

If you still insist on exiting life I can advise you, but really you don't have a good reason IMO to exit life at this point. If you were over 50 I wouldn't care as much but your young, I couldn't recommend CTBing at this time, at least not yet.

 

[wendydong1]

Basically failed school due to my suicide attempt last year that landed me two weeks in the hospital. So I'm ctbing because I haven't felt the same and school has started but I missed two weeks due to my classes being messed up from last year and having to repeat them. I finally had hope tho because my family got an attorney who is fighting with the school for me however I was suppose to go back on Thursday when I'll my friends turned their back on me :( I got text all throughout the night from random people at the school telling me not to go back and I'm just really over it. Wish I could see him tho he doesn't know how much he helps
He already knows too that I want to ctb and I'm planning on it. I'm just out of time

good luck. why went wrong with your first attempt?

 

[GeorgeJL]

What is your method @Sad.boi.lol.

 

[Sad.boi.lol.]

I drank a shit ton of alcohol, took a bunch of tramadol and Valium. I would've been out but I waited til four am and my parents found me the next day unconscious at 3 pm. I will forever hate myself for waiting that long :(

What is your method @Sad.boi.lol.

Partial suspension

IMO that probably isn't reason enough to commit suicide by itself since you still so young (assuming your young). You can get a job working in the middle class and still live a meaningful life. There are plenty of jobs you can get without a college degree, check out trade schools, apprenticeships. etc.

If you still insist on exiting life I can advise you, but really you don't have a good reason IMO to exit life at this point. If you were over 50 I wouldn't care as much but your young, I couldn't recommend CTBing at this time, at least not yet.

I think I've just given up on the fact that I will ever be happy. Coke and percs just haven't been cutting it plus the dealer got arrested. I feel like I will never get rid of these demons in my head that constantly cut me down and I've had enough

 

[GeorgeJL]

I drank a shit ton of alcohol, took a bunch of tramadol and Valium. I would've been out but I waited til four am and my parents found me the next day unconscious at 3 pm. I will forever hate myself for waiting that long :(

That might have been lethal if you were not found. There are a lot of pill ODs that are not lethal.

 

[Sad.boi.lol.]

Yeah I was on my way out and instead had to spend three days on life support in a medically induced coma on fentanyl but it was peaceful until I had to go to the psych ward so I'm not complaining

That might have been lethal if you were not found. There are a lot of pill ODs that are not lethal.

And yeah that's why I'm trying a different method. Pills just aren't reliable enough

good luck. why went wrong with your first attempt?

Thanks and like I said I just waited too long to take the pills and was found the next day. Still almost on my way out just needed more time

 

[woxihuanni]

If you say goodbye you will be caught. Delayed e-mail or something.