Venting Venting

[Zillai]

I don't know if anybody remembers me, but I posted here some years ago when I attempted. Obviously it didn't succeed and I ended up in a mental hospital. Despite the years and belief I would get better, I have not. I feel horrible, unloveable, ugly, and terribly self conscious, I've been thinking about committing again. I've tried help sites, but being on hold for minutes upon hours is not doing wonders for me.
Sometimes it also feels like I'm too much of a coward to do anything
I mean I failed my last attempt because I got cold feet and got caught and they got me a week in the psych ward(mainly because I lied my way through. This isn't really a "I'm gonna end it all thread" but just venting honestly

 

[itsgone2]

Vent away. Did you just recently start to feel low again? Or, what drove you to return?