Venting or talking online about suicide outside of this forum is absolutely pointless

[Siamese Believe]

I swear most suicide posts, especially on Reddit either get ignored or filled with gaslighting comments. And then of course removed by mods.

I also think a lot of people try to scare you out of it doing it by telling you horrific survivor stories or saying the method isn't quick.

I definitely don't think that's the intention of all of them because it's true that lot of methods can truly go terribly wrong. But I feel like this has to sometimes be a tactic to stop people from ctb. And a lot of methods fail because people hesitate or didn't do enough research before acting.

You mean to tell me a stab to the left ventricle of the heart won't result in rapid unconsciousness? I was told some weeks ago it would be slow, which can't be right but regardless there's no way I'm gonna let that happen.

Even if I have to stab myself multiple times to get to unconsciousness. If this is the only card in my arsenal that can truly ensure death, then I'll make it work.

Once the first stab happens, might as well keep going. At that point no one can save you so death is coming, fast or not.

 

[auto138491]

Also in real life. You talk about wanting to go and its like.. radio silence!

 

[sevencolorfulmoths]

Also in real life. You talk about wanting to go and its like.. radio silence!

mhm. the responses i got when trying to talk about w my family weren't helpful at all

 

[Tarantula]

The responses that I get are always so unhelpful and honestly that makes me want to ctb even more. People always either say 1. Suicide is a sin and I'll go to hell if I die because it is so "evil" and "selfish" 2. They would be sad if I died or they'll say something about my loved ones being sad if I die 3. I'm "strong" and "need to keep going" (which is invalidating because I am losing this battle BECAUSE i am weak. Why do people feel the need to act like being weak is some sort of moral failing and that suffering inherently makes you strong?)

There's also the fact that you can't even talk to mental health professionals about suicidal ideation either because alot of them will try to send you to the psych ward. The mental health system fails people like us and most people don't know how to help