I have tried to kill myself so many times and been hospitalized in many cities and for many months at a time.
- Overdose
- strangulation (while I was in the psych ward)
- stopping eating and drinking (while i was in the psych ward)
- stopping eating and drinking AGAIN (also didnt work clearly but forgive me because I was 14)
- Cutting extremely deep (I could see done)
- More overdoses (it actually worked one time but I was obviously saved by these two random workers by the docks)
and most recently hanging.
I was coming home from another city and I finally decided that I was done. I got off the bus in a different city and walked through the streets until I found a forest. Once I found the forest I decided that I needed something to hang myself with. I walked to the dollar store and purchased a pocket knife and rope. I went back to the forest and began cutting myself with the knife before finally cutting the rope with the knife. I tied it to the tree and tied a slip knot and hung myself. Unfortuantly my mom called the police because I turned off my location on my phone and wasnt home in time for dinner and the police mustve pinged my phone and they cut me down. The ambulance wrapped my leg in this rolled guaze bandage. Once I arrived at the hospital I was transferred to a different one closer to home once I was medically cleared. When I got to the second hospital I was placed in a seclusion cell with nothing but a materess on the floor and the paper clothes I was wearing. HOWEVER they forgot to take the rolled guaze off my leg. I used the rolled guaze and hung myself over the door of the cell. Again I was cut down.
WHY WAS I SAVED?????
I was so brave back then but now I'm so pussy.
If only I wasn't saved. I would've been free from all this added misery.
- Overdose
- strangulation (while I was in the psych ward)
- stopping eating and drinking (while i was in the psych ward)
- stopping eating and drinking AGAIN (also didnt work clearly but forgive me because I was 14)
- Cutting extremely deep (I could see done)
- More overdoses (it actually worked one time but I was obviously saved by these two random workers by the docks)
and most recently hanging.
I was coming home from another city and I finally decided that I was done. I got off the bus in a different city and walked through the streets until I found a forest. Once I found the forest I decided that I needed something to hang myself with. I walked to the dollar store and purchased a pocket knife and rope. I went back to the forest and began cutting myself with the knife before finally cutting the rope with the knife. I tied it to the tree and tied a slip knot and hung myself. Unfortuantly my mom called the police because I turned off my location on my phone and wasnt home in time for dinner and the police mustve pinged my phone and they cut me down. The ambulance wrapped my leg in this rolled guaze bandage. Once I arrived at the hospital I was transferred to a different one closer to home once I was medically cleared. When I got to the second hospital I was placed in a seclusion cell with nothing but a materess on the floor and the paper clothes I was wearing. HOWEVER they forgot to take the rolled guaze off my leg. I used the rolled guaze and hung myself over the door of the cell. Again I was cut down.
WHY WAS I SAVED?????
I was so brave back then but now I'm so pussy.
If only I wasn't saved. I would've been free from all this added misery.
