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getoutgirl

getoutgirl

<3
Mar 17, 2025
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Anyone knows or had contact with @manicstreetbeeper ?
Last I heard they said they had an update and would tell me soon, then disappeared in july :(
I know they had had ctb plans not long before that, but not sure at all bout that. If anyone can confirm or had any contact I'd appreciate it.

Also @ForeverCaHa , great poet and person, last I read he was very suicidal in a psych ward with plans to attempt as soon as he was let out... but if anyone has any info that'd be good too
thanks
 
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amerie

Warlock
Oct 6, 2024
739
Is @Gl1tch3d G1rl alright? She said she was going to attempt on September 3rd and hasn't been online since August 30. I don't know her personally and we didn't talk much at all but I'm concerned.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Enlightened
May 7, 2025
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@just a bird hasn't been on since Aug 18th. She had pushed her date at least a couple of times since I started talking to her. We would chat sporadically, so it wasn't strange to not talk for a while... but this is the longest I haven't seen her at least having been online.

Anyone know anything?
 
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R. A.

R. A.

Some day the dream will end
Aug 8, 2022
1,700
Oh, another longshot... @Red?
 
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just a bird

Member
Jun 7, 2025
48
@just a bird hasn't been on since Aug 18th. She had pushed her date at least a couple of times since I started talking to her. We would chat sporadically, so it wasn't strange to not talk for a while... but this is the longest I haven't seen her at least having been online.

Anyone know anything?
Hi. I'm sorry for worrying you. I am… alright. Hope you are doing ok.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Enlightened
May 7, 2025
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Hi. I'm sorry for worrying you. I am… alright. Hope you are doing ok.
Glad to hear. I understand being up and down and also taking a break sometimes too. Thank you for seeing this and responding, I wasn't sure what to think.
 
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Gl1tch3d G1rl

Gl1tch3d G1rl

My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
Aug 10, 2021
1,410
Is @Gl1tch3d G1rl alright? She said she was going to attempt on September 3rd and hasn't been online since August 30. I don't know her personally and we didn't talk much at all but I'm concerned.
I'm fine. Was blocked out by cloudflare for a few days, It happens sometimes. Yes, I was gonna attempt and I sorta did but these last days has been kinda crazy tbh.
 
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ClownWorld2023

Arcanist
Sep 18, 2023
483
Is @Meditation guide still with us?
 
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Downdraft

Something...
Feb 6, 2024
773
@downdraft is gone, gah, anyone know anything? i hope everything's okay. i get the worst anxiety when the "regulars" on here vanish.
Hi. :)
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,144
Anyone know what happened to @DOHARDTHINGS24 acc?
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,144
Oh no! I imagined self ban or something as there was no goodbye thread?.....May she have found her long awaited peace, poor soul.
 
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Bad Karma

Bad Karma

Marika the Eternal
May 13, 2025
126
was anyone close with @digitalblackhole? i haven't heard from them since september 3rd, and ive been worried sick. i just wish i had the chance to say goodbye.
i keep hoping they are simply taking a break or finding time to heal, maybe thats wishful thinking.
they had such a rare depth to them, wise beyond their years, thoughtful in ways that stayed with me. they had an incredible mind for philosophy and meaning. they really left an impression on me.
so if you've heard from them since please let me know.
 
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valleyofthedolls

Member
Oct 17, 2022
29
Does anyone know about @anonymous2025 He mentioned that he was taking SN soon and he hasn't replied to any of my messages
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
464
Does anyone know about @anonymous2025 He mentioned that he was taking SN soon and he hasn't replied to any of my messages
CTBed yesterday. There is a goodbye thread. (I don't paste it because I don't know linking to a goodbye thread is appropriate, someone please tell me)
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,142
I wondering about where @TheHolySword has gone to as she hasn't been here for a few months now.
I'm here again. Took a break after my favorite person here CTBed. Sometimes it's all just too much
 
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hell toupee

Experienced
Sep 9, 2024
231
I was in laughing nirvana from nitrous recently. Hopefully, this is what I'll experience shortly before my death when my time comes



I wonder why this gas is not used in MAID yet. If Nembutal is "gold standard", N2O should be platinum standard.


It's not used in MAID, and at least in the US, for all intents and purposes, Nembutal is not even manufactured anymore. Doctors stopped writing prescriptions for barbiturates with the advent of much safer benzos. As such, the only remaining demand for Nembutal was MAID and prisons for state executions. This caused the price of Nembutal to skyrocket as a result. The company with the Nembutal patent (I believe they are Canadian) then decided that they didn't like the idea of having their drugs used for executions, so they further limited the supply. This left right to die organizations, and that represents a teeny tiny segment of the market = not worth mfg for such small runs.

MAID in the US then switched to Seconal. However the same problem reared it's head - that is, doctors (at least in US) virtually never write prescriptions for barbiturates anymore.

In my state, California, they now use a 3 drug combo for MAID. Propofol, another drug that paralyzes the muscles, and a final drug that stops the heart - some sort of potassium I think.

The problem with propofol is the effects wear off after like 5-10 minutes. However, combined with a plastic bag it would be perfect, especially if it's an overdose. Should give you more that enough time to let the plastic bag do the heavy lifting. If I had access to the dark web, I would get propofol. Nembutal most assuredly would probably be a scam.

I also considered 7-OH, as it's legal in the US and is said to be 13-20x stronger than morphine - it's a legit mu agonist. I was going to buy 1500mg, crush them in to a powder, fasting for 24 hours beforehand, then getting a little drunk and as soon as I start to feel woozy, I secure a 45 gallon garbage bag over my head which would give me about 60 minutes to breathe normally. This would insure I am in a semi coma while I asphyxiate from rising CO2 levels.

The problem is I discovered this too late. There was a rash of ODs in Los Angeles, so California, where I live, made it illegal to sell as of July 2025. Not possess, but to sell. In other states it's still legal though. I don't even care if I die by OD, all I'm worried about is producing a loss of consciousness. The plastic bag is my insurance for every method I am considering. As I stated to you in a previous post, I'm now going for N2O and a plastic bag.
 
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