v089 self-banned themselves, right..?
They don't show up on the registered users list, I can't tag them (@v089) in a post or in the search bar...
I had them on my follower list, but now I only see "Unfollow" option on their profile, previously it was also "Ignore" (they had their ability to send messages disabled).
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Does anyone here know them or is friends with them?
Does anyone have any contact with them?
Does anyone know if they're alive, what's going on with them?
Does anyone know if they did it..?
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I suspected how bad their mental state might be, that they might do it...
I wanted to write to them, I wanted to offer them friendship, try to support them, but I kept putting it off...
When I finally got the possibility to do it, when I finally meant to do it, I don't have the chance anymore?
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I always try to help all the people I can become close friends with, that is, who are from my country and who are my peers...
I always want to improve their situation as much as I can. I want to make them feel better, to make their suffering stop a little, so that maybe they don't have to decide to take such a step...
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Is this another person I've been too late to?
Have I failed to help someone, who did I really have the chance to help?
Again..?
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I failed again.
I let someone down again.
I could have made someone's situation better again, but I didn't manage to do it.
Either that person will remain alone in their suffering and I won't be able to help them anymore, or because of my indolence and lack of reaction they killed themselves...
I hate myself for it...
Why do I always have to fuck everything up?