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Susan Caswell

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Feb 25, 2019
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Hi I don't really know how to post but I am beyond desperate. Im suffering 21 months with deafening hammering Tinnitus like a workmans pneumatic drill with server hyperacusis (sensitivity to all normal sounds) really bad anxiety weight loss massive hair loss body bouncing and shaking cant function cant sleep. How many 7.5mg of Zopiclone would it take to die would 20 tablets do it I cant think what else to do other than jump but so frightened I don't die and left crippled or brain dead. This is not like me I was so capable independent caring generous lovely life but I cant live this way the noise is too much to bare in your own head/ears like this its a living hell please can someone help me. I( would never have been like this ever so much to live for but I cannot be this ill its no one life. Thank you
 
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It wont kill you. Try to relax and research effective methods.
 
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Hi I don't really know how to post but I am beyond desperate. Im suffering 21 months with deafening hammering Tinnitus like a workmans pneumatic drill with server hyperacusis (sensitivity to all normal sounds) really bad anxiety weight loss massive hair loss body bouncing and shaking cant function cant sleep. How many 7.5mg of Zopiclone would it take to die would 20 tablets do it I cant think what else to do other than jump but so frightened I don't die and left crippled or brain dead. This is not like me I was so capable independent caring generous lovely life but I cant live this way the noise is too much to bare in your own head/ears like this its a living hell please can someone help me. I( would never have been like this ever so much to live for but I cannot be this ill its no one life. Thank you
i am in the same hell...physical issues and now desperation, grief etc want out tried with bentos but not enough
suffering suffering.....unreal reality if that is even possible i was independent healthy to a fault capable now a cripple.....beyond angry beyond sad just need a peaceful way out.....saw the SN option but it seems not reliable enough can not risk being a vegetable or go back to hell hospitals....how is this even my
life???? help
 
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i am in the same hell...physical issues and now desperation, grief etc want out tried with bentos but not enough
suffering suffering.....unreal reality if that is even possible i was independent healthy to a fault capable now a cripple.....beyond angry beyond sad just need a peaceful way out.....saw the SN option but it seems not reliable enough can not risk being a vegetable or go back to hell hospitals....how is this even my
life???? help
Do you have enough money for N?
 
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headinghome

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Apr 11, 2019
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Do you have enough money for N?
probably but not sure if I could buy it as I am restricted to home and don't have bitcoin....sure my husband would get suspicious if I asked him to show me how to sign up
 
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IronTusk

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probably but not sure if I could buy it as I am restricted to home and don't have bitcoin....sure my husband would get suspicious if I asked him to show me how to sign up
Ive heard getting btc is easier than you would think.
 
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Macc Lad

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Jan 22, 2019
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Hi I don't really know how to post but I am beyond desperate. Im suffering 21 months with deafening hammering Tinnitus like a workmans pneumatic drill with server hyperacusis (sensitivity to all normal sounds) really bad anxiety weight loss massive hair loss body bouncing and shaking cant function cant sleep. How many 7.5mg of Zopiclone would it take to die would 20 tablets do it I cant think what else to do other than jump but so frightened I don't die and left crippled or brain dead. This is not like me I was so capable independent caring generous lovely life but I cant live this way the noise is too much to bare in your own head/ears like this its a living hell please can someone help me. I( would never have been like this ever so much to live for but I cannot be this ill its no one life. Thank you

my heart goes out to you x
 
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Susan Caswell

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Feb 25, 2019
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Do you have enough money for N?
I don't know how to get it . Ive applied to Dignits and 2 other clinics in Europe but they say they cant help me as not terminal. I thought they covered immense suffering and this is horrific suffering I cant hear anything but this its as loud as workmans pneumatic drill every minute of every day how can I live like ths its been 21 months cant take it any longer feel so cheated out of the rest of my Life. Had so much recovered from Cancer, big back operation would swap anything for this its slowly killing me anyone on the Zopiclone ?
 
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Davy

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I know someone with tinnitus and he said this helps him to temporarily relieve it, though his is not as serious as yours. Best of luck ;-;
 
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Susan Caswell

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I know someone with tinnitus and he said this helps him to temporarily relieve it, though his is not as serious as yours. Best of luck ;-;
Thanks ive tried it nothing is helping this tried all medial routes consultants tinnitus clinics and every alternative therapy known to man sick of it all I cant be this ill this demented this tortured its such suffering cruel unfair only ever been a good person had so much medically but this is horrific
 
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headinghome

Experienced
Apr 11, 2019
205
Thanks ive tried it nothing is helping this tried all medial routes consultants tinnitus clinics and every alternative therapy known to man sick of it all I cant be this ill this demented this tortured its such suffering cruel unfair only ever been a good person had so much medically but this is horrific
husband his...T docs say some sort of relief/cure coming soon....sympathize with craving death to relieve suffering.......here this AM trying not to scream...trying not to run and grab a knife to stab my self or try to make it to a road and run in front of a car....
why am I (or we) forced to suffer like this without relief...drugs, shrinks??? they think these are cures????? cruel heartless society....society has failed
 
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IronTusk

Experienced
Apr 10, 2019
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I don't know how to get it . Ive applied to Dignits and 2 other clinics in Europe but they say they cant help me as not terminal. I thought they covered immense suffering and this is horrific suffering I cant hear anything but this its as loud as workmans pneumatic drill every minute of every day how can I live like ths its been 21 months cant take it any longer feel so cheated out of the rest of my Life. Had so much recovered from Cancer, big back operation would swap anything for this its slowly killing me anyone on the Zopiclone ?
Contact A from the peaceful pill handbook. It is expensive.
 
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headinghome

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Apr 11, 2019
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Contact A from the peaceful pill handbook. It is expensive.
what is process for starting dialog with A for N? I need to end this suffering please. I am in western US.
 
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Susan Caswell

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Feb 25, 2019
316
Contact A from the peaceful pill handbook. It is expensive.
I wouldn't know where to start or how to pay and how does it get to you it would be intercepted wouldn't it and im too ill to travel to get it
 
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IronTusk

Experienced
Apr 10, 2019
266
I wouldn't know where to start or how to pay and how does it get to you it would be intercepted wouldn't it and im too ill to travel to get it
You can pay with western union or bitcoin. Alot of people on here have recieved it so i dont think youll have a problem.
 
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headinghome

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Apr 11, 2019
205
You can pay with western union or bitcoin. Alot of people on here have recieved it so i dont think youll have a problem.
Wonder how it would feel to have it sitting in my house....wonder how many have it and aren't using it? Wonder how........
 
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Jul 24, 2018
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what is process for starting dialog with A for N? I need to end this suffering please. I am in western US.

I wouldn't know where to start or how to pay and how does it get to you it would be intercepted wouldn't it and im too ill to travel to get it

Everything you need to know is in the PPeH. A's email is on pg. 281: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-peaceful-pill-ehandbook-march-24-2019-revision.14416/

And this thread: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/megathread-getting-n-from-a.2544/page-54#post-288407

Basically you contact A through email using Protonmail and ask him about payment and courier options (he will also give you a tracking number). You can pay with the options mentioned above and sometimes Paypal. He seems to have a good method when it comes to making it less detectable. He also offers to reship it if it's confiscated.
 
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Apr 9, 2019
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I don't know how to get it . Ive applied to Dignits and 2 other clinics in Europe but they say they cant help me as not terminal. I thought they covered immense suffering and this is horrific suffering I cant hear anything but this its as loud as workmans pneumatic drill every minute of every day how can I live like ths its been 21 months cant take it any longer feel so cheated out of the rest of my Life. Had so much recovered from Cancer, big back operation would swap anything for this its slowly killing me anyone on the Zopiclone ?
What's the point of these Dignitas organizations that instead of helping the severe suffering healthy people they go for those who are already about to die? The one who really needs help is not only terminal patients, and those haven't got much left. The others may need it even more.
 
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