I decided to revisit the site today and make a post. I also wanna say I perused the site during my break very occasionally, really only a few times. Would've only been once or twice but I saw @puffyclouds goodbyw thread (RIP) and kept up with that.
Anyways, my break has done me some good and I've had more time to consider things. I finally blocked my ex, which I should've done ages ago, I also have done pretty well academically speaking.
I still feel a sense of dread about graduating, the job market, and the difficulty of interviews once I graduate with a degree in CS but I'll deal with that once I'm closer to that, kinda a "cross that bridge when I get there" mentality.
I've journaled more, started reading a book, and overall done pretty good for myself. I don't really attribute this to me taking a break from this site, but just wanted to mention it. I'm unsure if it actually had a positive effect on my mind, as I'm honestly still as, if not possibly more, depressed than when I took the break.
I'll probably still post less and maybe frequent the site less often but I still like the community, and feel like I still fit in. If I ever fully recover (feels like a huge IF), I'll probably leave this site but I haven't yet and don't think I will anytime soon. I still constantly struggle mentally and think about CTB, especially after college for some reason.
I hope everyone is doing okay and progressing well, if you're pursuing recovery. I'm proud of everyone for attempting recovery and trying to better themselves.
Anyways, my break has done me some good and I've had more time to consider things. I finally blocked my ex, which I should've done ages ago, I also have done pretty well academically speaking.
I still feel a sense of dread about graduating, the job market, and the difficulty of interviews once I graduate with a degree in CS but I'll deal with that once I'm closer to that, kinda a "cross that bridge when I get there" mentality.
I've journaled more, started reading a book, and overall done pretty good for myself. I don't really attribute this to me taking a break from this site, but just wanted to mention it. I'm unsure if it actually had a positive effect on my mind, as I'm honestly still as, if not possibly more, depressed than when I took the break.
I'll probably still post less and maybe frequent the site less often but I still like the community, and feel like I still fit in. If I ever fully recover (feels like a huge IF), I'll probably leave this site but I haven't yet and don't think I will anytime soon. I still constantly struggle mentally and think about CTB, especially after college for some reason.
I hope everyone is doing okay and progressing well, if you're pursuing recovery. I'm proud of everyone for attempting recovery and trying to better themselves.
