Unsure if SN is legit

[Flutter Girl]

First post, have been lurking for quite a while…I've found writing about it publicly to be difficult, because I'm terrified of getting found out. I have a mother that's a raging malignant narcissist, that would delight in me being trapped in a psych ward.

At the same time, if (more like when) the time comes, I want to be able to have some people to talk to, even just in a thread that's deleted afterwards. I've been alone literally or figuratively (periods where I wasn't alone, but was actively used and abused, and unable to talk about it) my whole life, and I know I'll need that comfort to push past SI, and fear of pain…despite the soul-crushing physical and psychological pain I deal with daily.

I thought I'd found my method with some SN I found on the jungle, but it seems to me like it's likely/possibly not legit. The package looks nothing like what was advertised (reagent/lab grade, labeled, sealed container), and it in fact came in an unlabeled bag, that I'm yet to unseal/inspect…out of fear of finding I was ripped off, not wanting to keep opening if it IS legit, and not quite knowing the best ways to test it, despite all my research here so far.

I really can't afford to spend more money if it IS legit, and I don't see other sources, that might not sound an alarm…but I'm even more worried after reading a story of someone ordering N, and finding that they got rat poison. I'm so afraid of this being bogus, as it's truly my only option.

I'm aware of the blood test, but am very put off by blood. Is that the sole way to test? From what I've read, aquarium tests won't make the grade :/

Also wondering is anyone has successfully tested supposed SN from this jungle source.

Thanks
- Flutter

 

[dredd1981]

I looked at procuring SN from there, it was advertised as "SN, pink curing salt". There was no info on the site about the makeup of it but I am reliably informed that it's mostly salt and the SN content is less than 1%. To be effective it needs to be over 95%.
Where abouts are you from? I'm from the UK and SN is really hard to procure here, I've found one place that ships here but it's not cheap. Exit international sell kits where you can send them a sample of whatever it is you have and they tell you what it is….maybe a good idea if you don't trust your source or have doubts about how effective it would be

 

[Flutter Girl]

Yeah, I made sure not to get a pink curing salt…this was listed as something like "99.89% pure, lab grade reagent," or the like. That's what was in the image, which had a bottle with a label, pictures that seemed to have the right appearance…but then I just received an bag-type container, with no label, that says made in China.

If it's not real, the seller was absolutely misrepresenting the product - perhaps knowing that people would have trouble proving it, based on what it's being used for.

I feel so thwarted…like "enough bad shit has happened to me, why wouldn't this *also* be fake (like most of the people I've known)?"

I'll look into the kits for proof, but that seems like time I don't have Also, if that's the group where you need family "permission" for help, I'm sunk. They don't want my success, they don't want me to have relief in death…they just want me here, as miserable as possible.

Edit: I'm in the US.

 

[CloseFriendofCamus]

You could do a blood and aquarium test for your SN

 

[Flutter Girl]

You could do a blood and aquarium test for your SN

Like I said, not a fan of blood, and am kind of worried about how to deal with that. Ironically, I have more of an issue with drawing blood than taking the SN, AE, etc.

Also worried about opening this since it's in a bag…even if it's genuine, has it turned to nitrate? What was the original container, and how long ago was it removed to be placed in the bag? So when I do open it, I want to be sure I do things properly.

From what I've read here the past few weeks, aquarium tests can only tell purity you to like 50-70%?

I'm getting so caught in worry & overthinking that I've been ripped off here…I did so much due diligence in looking for the right type, but being taken advantage of is a repeating theme in my life.

It's actually part of why I can't deal anymore…I'm very ill, & will always need the help of others…and I've constantly had already horrific conditions used against me, been gaslit and neglected and medically and financially abused. And that's after a childhood of neglect and CSA/molestation. It's all just too much.

The only escape is what? Homelessness until I can find a nursing home that will have COMPLETE power over me, for decades? And at this level of pain? It's unbearable. I think, more than anything, I'm afraid to find out that it's bogus or converted to nitrate

 

[CloseFriendofCamus]

Like I said, not a fan of blood, and am kind of worried about how to deal with that. Ironically, I have more of an issue with drawing blood than taking the SN, AE, etc.

Also worried about opening this since it's in a bag…even if it's genuine, has it turned to nitrate? What was the original container, and how long ago was it removed to be placed in the bag? So when I do open it, I want to be sure I do things properly.

From what I've read here the past few weeks, aquarium tests can only tell purity you to like 50-70%?

I'm getting so caught in worry & overthinking that I've been ripped off here…I did so much due diligence in looking for the right type, but being taken advantage of is a repeating theme in my life.

It's actually part of why I can't deal anymore…I'm very ill, & will always need the help of others…and I've constantly had already horrific conditions used against me, been gaslit and neglected and medically and financially abused. And that's after a childhood of neglect and CSA/molestation. It's all just too much.

The only escape is what? Homelessness until I can find a nursing home that will have COMPLETE power over me, for decades? And at this level of pain? It's unbearable. I think, more than anything, I'm afraid to find out that it's bogus or converted to nitrate

Well, with SN you either trust the seller or you test it. You can use diabetic lancet to prickle your finger to draw blood, no need to slash anything. I heard opening a few times is OK but do it closer to CTB date.

Well yeah the aquarium tests don't tell you percentages but hey, it tells you something at least.

I am sorry for what you're going through, feel free to PM me if you need to talk

 

[Flutter Girl]

Well, with SN you either trust the seller or you test it. You can use diabetic lancet to prickle your finger to draw blood, no need to slash anything. I heard opening a few times is OK but do it closer to CTB date.

Well yeah the aquarium tests don't tell you percentages but hey, it tells you something at least.

I am sorry for what you're going through, feel free to PM me if you need to talk

Thanks. Going to look at prices for the aquarium tests, just to see if I at least have the right stuff. The lancets are also a good idea if I can find them cheap…I've given myself Epipens numerous times. Jabbing myself with those involves some SI issues that need to be overcome…if I can handle that, I think I can handle some thin lancets.

I think those are my best bets, I guess. My worst fear is prepping to CTB, only for it not to work. I've fought valiantly through some awful shit, and things are at a tipping point. I'm not sitting around waiting for the inevitable things (homelessness; progression of awful but not terminal conditions; an overzealous/eugenicist government that will def at some point be taking away the pain relief I CAN access, in the name of an inflated "crisis") that will only make my life even worse.

No one could say I didn't try. I've been failed at every turn since birth.

 

[Judy Garland]

What does your SN look like. Is it an off-white with a yellowish tint to it? I purchased from the Jungle site too, but from Turkey. I also purchased from another source as a backup so I have two sources I purchased from. Post a picture of your Nitrite so I can see if it looks legit.

 

[Doombox]

I too got a mystery baggie from Turkey off the jungle website. Mine does have a label on it though.

 

[CloseFriendofCamus]

Thanks. Going to look at prices for the aquarium tests, just to see if I at least have the right stuff. The lancets are also a good idea if I can find them cheap…I've given myself Epipens numerous times. Jabbing myself with those involves some SI issues that need to be overcome…if I can handle that, I think I can handle some thin lancets.

I think those are my best bets, I guess. My worst fear is prepping to CTB, only for it not to work. I've fought valiantly through some awful shit, and things are at a tipping point. I'm not sitting around waiting for the inevitable things (homelessness; progression of awful but not terminal conditions; an overzealous/eugenicist government that will def at some point be taking away the pain relief I CAN access, in the name of an inflated "crisis") that will only make my life even worse.

No one could say I didn't try. I've been failed at every turn since birth.

Look for tests that do test nitrite, that's very important

Because some strips don't test that

Lancets work nicely, a small prick and minimum pain, just make sure to be careful

 

[Judy Garland]

I too got a mystery baggie from Turkey off the jungle website. Mine does have a label on it though.

I have that too. Others who have ordered from Turkey have done the blood and aquarium tests and they found it to be legit. The SN look completely marvelous in it's cream/off white yellowish color. I ordered from two sources though just to be sure, incase one of them fell through.

 

[WanderingWater]

Look for tests that do test nitrite, that's very important

Because some strips don't test that

Lancets work nicely, a small prick and minimum pain, just make sure to be careful

In the past, there have been post that the SD brand is legit. I understand that you are unsettled about this due to packaging.

 

[happy?1270]

Is it's brand an " r ink" ? If so this is what I got off big a before my parents confiscated

 

[Flutter Girl]

What does your SN look like. Is it an off-white with a yellowish tint to it? I purchased from the Jungle site too, but from Turkey. I also purchased from another source as a backup so I have two sources I purchased from. Post a picture of your Nitrite so I can see if it looks legit.

I haven't opened the bag that it came in yet (again, that fear that it will be bogus). I tend to be avoidant with things that stress me out (part of why I'm in this situation, I haven't been able to face the fallout of a shitload of abuse).

But the thought of others being able to lmk if it looks legit would help push me along. I'll try to as soon as I can work up to it…thank you

In the past, there have been post that the SD brand is legit. I understand that you are unsettled about this due to packaging.

There have been???? That's what's had me so nervous!!

Is it's brand an " r ink" ? If so this is what I got off big a before my parents confiscated

No, it's an SD brand. Someone else said they've read of other posts saying it's been legit, tho

Really hoping this helps me work up the courage to open it…I don't fear CTB at all, just any mistakes that would make me fail. The pain I deal with daily is ungodly, and I have so many limitations bc of a condition that makes me react to EVERYTHING. What I truly fear is not having a way out. Here's hoping this is the real deal.

So sorry to hear that yours got confiscated

 

[Judy Garland]

I haven't opened the bag that it came in yet (again, that fear that it will be bogus). I tend to be avoidant with things that stress me out (part of why I'm in this situation, I haven't been able to face the fallout of a shitload of abuse).

But the thought of others being able to lmk if it looks legit would help push me along. I'll try to as soon as I can work up to it…thank you

There have been???? That's what's had me so nervous!!

No, it's an SD brand. Someone else said they've read of other posts saying it's been legit, tho

Really hoping this helps me work up the courage to open it…I don't fear CTB at all, just any mistakes that would make me fail. The pain I deal with daily is ungodly, and I have so many limitations bc of a condition that makes me react to EVERYTHING. What I truly fear is not having a way out. Here's hoping this is the real deal.

So sorry to hear that yours got confiscated

I would use the search function of the forums and search for your brand, remember that people might have posted your brand using code like SD, so I would search using that and the actual product name. You should come across some talk about it, and you'll find people's test results too.

 

[VikingHagstrom]

I also have the one from Turkey. Anyone have a link on blood test performed please ?

 

[Judy Garland]

I also have the one from Turkey. Anyone have a link on blood test performed please ?

Search the threads using the keywords SN and Turkey. You'll find that people have done blood tests as well as the aquarium test, and it passed.