unserious shit that makes you seriously wanna ctb

[Spicy Tteokbokki]

same, I literally get pointed and laughed at on the regular. and anytime I try to bring it up with my therapist or my family they tell me I'm imagining it. it's the most maddening thing

Yeah, therapists always assume you are making things up, lol.
Even when I had literal proof on my phone recorded of whatever I was talking about they'd still try to gaslight me until I showed them the actual proof.

 

[fruitninjamaster]

dishes

 

[sanctionedusage]

hes literally orange too

same, I literally get pointed and laughed at on the regular. and anytime I try to bring it up with my therapist or my family they tell me I'm imagining it. it's the most maddening thing

therapists are notorious gaslighters. it's literally been proven the only benefit of therapy is when a client develops a close, friend-like connection with them and the sole experience of having a positive human relationship where they feel listened to is enough to improve mental health conditions. "friend-like" of course. and incredibly predatory once you unpack the reality that it's an artificial connection held together by money and constantly on a tightrope of nonconsensual psych ward admission. they can't bank off your hope of fixing yourself if they don't present you with the laziest fantasy reality where your problems don't exist, simply because they said so

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

hes literally orange too

therapists are notorious gaslighters. it's literally been proven the only benefit of therapy is when a client develops a close, friend-like connection with them and the sole experience of having a positive human relationship where they feel listened to is enough to improve mental health conditions. "friend-like" of course. and incredibly predatory once you unpack the reality that it's an artificial connection held together by money and constantly on a tightrope of nonconsensual psych ward admission. they can't bank off your hope of fixing yourself if they don't present you with the laziest fantasy reality where your problems don't exist, simply because they said so

And therapists only talk to people because they earn money from it, that doesn't seem like it would help me, because I want a real connection that talks to me and helps me without money and stuff like friends, it has nothing to do with money with therapists, it just... Doesn't feel right, if you know what I mean.
If that movie theater thing happened to me again, I will be angry enough to actually go to them and say why are you laughing at me, all because my stupid fucking delusional thoughts are getting worse, if it is something really rude, like how I think it will go, I would hit my head against a wall repeatedly until I am knocked out I swear I can't handle it.

 

[chudeatte]

small talk and social rules/expectations

 

[fallingbehind]

you were one of the very first posts i ever saw on sasu, talking about exactly this! how do you manage?

Huh, thats crazy because I really feel like I havent owned an acc here for that long lol. Its actually terrible though, I have a bad relationship with food already so that makes it even worse. I mainly cope by drinking my calories.

 

[Spite]

Discord servers, and the vast majority of people on the Internet. SaSu seems to be an exception, but generally seeing most online communities makes me want to kill myself. Mainly because I know I don't fit in with 99% of communities. Everyone seems so happy, vibrant, hyperactive and outgoing, and I'm not. I'm an emotional parasite and my depression is a burden to everyone.

 

[DeathsShootingStar]

my first love already having a first love/gf and it not being me even though it was literally impossible for that to ever happen since i wasn't born yet/barely alive.

Same boat (?). Guy I've been talking to for these last couple months is 13 yrs older than me. Context : we've been friends for a couple years now, but recently been talking as more than friends. But the thought of him doing anything with someone else before me is.... Such a gross thought that makes me wanna slit my wrists tbh. But realistically he has cuz I mean. Shit! I was a baby when he was entering highschool. Sorry for the rambling

 

[violetforever]

Same boat (?). Guy I've been talking to for these last couple months is 13 yrs older than me. Context : we've been friends for a couple years now, but recently been talking as more than friends. But the thought of him doing anything with someone else before me is.... Such a gross thought that makes me wanna slit my wrists tbh. But realistically he has cuz I mean. Shit! I was a baby when he was entering highschool. Sorry for the rambling

mine is 15 years apart. same situation, friends for a few years then it mistakenly turned into something more. as much as it bothered me i'm a curious person. i used to pry and ask about his ex and stuff like that. probably a form of self harm. i'm glad someone else shares my illogical thinking lol.