hyacinths
Member
- Sep 25, 2021
- 70
ive been 'searching' for a job since i got fired last december. searching is a word i use very lightly because i actually have not been doing anything besides applying for jobs and then missing out on the interviews i set up.. I always seem excited about it and then it gets to the day of the interview and i clam up and just don't go. its been a problem for me forever. i have almost no motivation to get a job, even the fact that im 8k usd in debt at 20 is hardly even a motivation for me to find a job. i don't know how to kick my ass into gear to start actually moving forward but if i keep going this route my relationship with my mom is going to completely ruined because of me being a neet LMAO. sometimes I feel like its just too hopeless for me and i should kill myself to make it easier on everyone but its like i have friends i care about and my mom and they're all making me stay here so why not at least try to better my awful life so i can make them proud of me for once :/