undecided about ctb

[fvckfamily]

Is anyone out there also unsure whether to CTB or not? I've been at this for a while and I can't take it anymore

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

For me it's my SI that acts up sometimes. There is never a day that I don't want to cease to exist. On some days the desire is stronger, on some it is weaker, but it is always there. The quality of my life is very poor and it will only keep degrading. Yes, the SI deceives me and tells me I should live, but there is no hope for me.

 

[fvckfamily]

Me too My brother

 

[lastboyscout]

There are

For me it's my SI that acts up sometimes. There is never a day that I don't want to cease to exist. On some days the desire is stronger, on some it is weaker, but it is always there. The quality of my life is very poor and it will only keep degrading. Yes, the SI deceives me and tells me I should live, but there is no hope for me.

my reasons look so similar that for a moment I thought I had written your post lol

 

[fvckfamily]

Há

meus motivos são tão parecidos que por um momento pensei que tinha escrito seu post rs

O mesmo vale pra mim, estamos todo no mesmo barco

 

[lnlybnny]

I want to disappear, to not exist anymore, but the thought of having to do it with my own hands is so draining. I have no energy to live and no energy to die

 

[fvckfamily]

Eu quero desaparecer, não existir mais, mas o pensamento de ter que fazer isso com minhas próprias mãos é tão desgastante. Não tenho energia para viver e nem energia para morrer

Desejo melhoras pra ti sobre toda essa situation

 

[DeathSleep]

There's no hurry if you're undecided, is there? It's a big decision.

I was undecided for quite a while but I think it's just because it's such a big commitment and there's no going back. Of course SI didn't help.

I hope you find your peace whatever that may be.