TheGoodGuy
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- Aug 27, 2018
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I am sitting here trying to fight the urge/feeling of not drinking I wanna stop drinking but I just can´t.. I can´t..
Both I need to stop to continue my therapy for aspergers and I also want to stop since I actually hate alcohol. But the thread is mostly for fun since I thought it was funny with the "I just can´t I can´t (clicking link) I can´t fight this feeling anymore etc.Do you want to stop, or do you need to stop?
I've recently stopped myself. You just need to try to stay busy and stop thinking about it so much. You've gota really want it too.Both I need to stop to continue my therapy for aspergers and I also want to stop since I actually hate alcohol. But the thread is mostly for fun since I thought it was funny with the "I just can´t I can´t (clicking link) I can´t fight this feeling anymore etc.
I have noticed that sometimes when I get busy with writing long posts I forget about the mental urge to drink for that short while but because of apathy and anhedonia I don´t have anything to keep me busy with the only thing I do is watching the same series over and over, and some YouTube being on this forum and another one and I don´t really enjoy video games anymore but even so I tried booting up CS GO after months of not playing but since they keep updating the game and add more cosmetic content my FPS is so low that I can´t play it smoothly.I've recently stopped myself. You just need to try to stay busy and stop thinking about it so much. You've gota really want it too.
That sound horrifying to have through decades of this.I stopped four years ago after thirty years of alcohol abuse has destroyed my body, which is gradually and comprehensively fucking up.
And yet I still have the odd glass of wine precisely because, even though it's killing me slowly, it's the only thing that alleviates the things that plague me and I still go into 'fuckit' mode.
Nothing in life has come close to the feeling alcohol has given me and the times I have had under the influence. That's very addictive in itself. I hate that I am always a prisoner to this because of my malfunctioning biochemistry.
I window shopped beer today, but luckily the store had run out of all my favourites.
You are correct, I haven't tried anything like that, I was always too afraid of losing myself. Alcohol for me, made me into who I wanted to be for a short time. It wasn't so much about escape or even hedonism, simply losing certain bad traits and letting good ones out. Some of it was substance abuse, granted, but a chunk of it was actually being addicted to being the person I really was under all the repressed mental junk that booze just side stepped.That sound horrifying to have through decades of this.
But I disagree with how amazing alcohol is, you clearly have never tried MDMA even if suicidal and in the right company it will be on of the best days of your life it´s pure euphoria from 3-5 hours it´s so amazing.
That sound horrifying to have through decades of this.
But I disagree with how amazing alcohol is, you clearly have never tried MDMA even if suicidal and in the right company it will be on of the best days of your life it´s pure euphoria from 3-5 hours it´s so amazing.
MDMA makes you love all people and it´s debateable if it is fake or real because what is reality even? I recently debated with a person on this forum who accused me of being a psychopath which I will admit isn´t a far stretch I guess I am a bit of a sociopath but on MDMA I love all humans male or female in a none sexual way it´s hard to describe there is no hate and if you got social anxiety no matter how bad it is you can walk up to a stanger and talk to that person and from a person like me with social anxiety it was incredibly to experience life with 0% social anxiety.You are correct, I haven't tried anything like that, I was always too afraid of losing myself. Alcohol for me, made me into who I wanted to be for a short time. It wasn't so much about escape or even hedonism, simply losing certain bad traits and letting good ones out. Some of it was substance abuse, granted, but a chunk of it was actually being addicted to being the person I really was under all the repressed mental junk that booze just side stepped.
The 2nd time as I just desribed was very smooth but if you want a clean comedown benzos would be a good idea for just that one time don´t keep using them I never used benzos on comedown yet I am addicted to them now to treat anxiety but you won´t become addicted to benzos by using them once to calm down after MDMA.Not who you responded to, but I've heard that about MDMA quite a bit, but I've also heard the crash is horrible. I've always been intrigued to try it, but I'm afraid of the crash making me worse than I am at baseline. What was the crash like for you? Was it as bad as they say?
I am sitting here trying to fight the urge/feeling of not drinking I wanna stop drinking but I just can´t.. I can´t..
I agree but I lost one my best and loyal friends to "just" get off weed and I feel bad for that I wish I had just killed myself years ago..Alcoholic and drug addict here. [recovered]
It's one day at a time <-- annoying but true.
and you have to persue recovery for yourself. Noone else.
This endeavor requires selfishness.
Logic being quitting for anyone else is a deception
and more often than not doomed to failure/relapse.
The above was true for me.
That's all i got on that.
Okay i understand that but, that sounds like a problem ownership issue.I agree but I lost one my best and loyal friends to "just" get off weed and I feel bad for that I wish I had just killed myself years ago..