The coke is literally the only thing that helps. I tried eight or ten prescription things.
Freud used it for depression. Probably, it was cheaper then. That was before they knew it was addictive.I am personally not addicted. I am literally using a line or few to get out of bed, do washing up. It is sad and boring, not a party
I'm in my late forties and just discovered it helps me in the last year or two.
I know it can be addictive, expensive, dangerous for some people so I don't promote it as such. I just question the hierarchy of any drug over another…The prescription meds just gave me a ten day period and upset tummy plus extra agitation. They definitely aren't any better. I wish they worked but…I might re-test them, but they were my first anti-psychotic and have definitely blunted the (happy) effect of cocaine maybe permanently, even though I was maybe on them for six weeks only
Saying that, I've been to Cocaine Anonymous (mainly to socialise) which is for every addiction. All of them hard to get off, definitely. I personally don't want to/need to as can't afford it but need it, so small amount all I can get! I just hate all of it. I mean just to get out of bed…but I guess I should see it as a medicine for me.
Thanks everyone for your comments. I am calmer today because I had a line last night. What does that mean about my brain. No come down - it actually improves me. I must have low dopamine.
After being at bus stop wishing I had an off switch I am now watching normal people go by from where I sit alone. Wish I could just collapse and lie on carpet.
@TAW122 thanks for your comment. How many days and years more will we brave this suffering. We are doing time.
If any of the above annoyed anyone, am sorry. Think am autistic/not socially educated. Plus stoned and exhausted