Trying to give myself a year

[Gstreater]

I want to die and I'm not scared of dying anymore. I'm giving myself a year to help those I love and get my affairs in order. I'm tired of pretending I have a reason to live anymore. Hopefully I can last that long without jumping off the nearest bridge at this point

 

[esistzeit]

I did that last year. I tried "manifestation" stuff but it didn't work. Now here I am with SN in hands

 

[CatLvr]

I'm so screwed up -- no way could I try a year. I literally started out this last round I had with depression saying "If I'm not better in a month dot dot dot" and just going at it that way. Plus, I gave myself things to work on, of course. One of those things is finding homes for all my babies. And I have a LOT of babies right now. Yeah, I kinda screwed that up, too.

 

[greeneyedgirl]

I only want to live for a few more months then I'm ready to go.

 

[max_vader2]

I'm trying to love up to three point where my kids don't need anymore.

But that will happen in at least 10 years, and I don't think i can keep my shit together for that long

 

[fleetingnight]

I'm sorry things have gotten this hopeless for you I'm hoping to do something similar. It's good to give yourself time, though the wait can be daunting. I hope all goes as well as it can<3

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you all the best, I also just wish to be gone.