Venting Trans man or failed woman

[Hellis]

Transitioning sounds like a cure to my problems, but it's not. I'm not a man in a woman's body, I'm a woman who can't come to terms with reality.

Death is a better outcome then trying and learning that I am still myself in the end, female and all.

 

[shiftypenguin]

I took hormones for nearly 2 years (MtF) before realizing that things were never gonna work out for me.

 

[OnnanokoNiNaritai]

Transitioning sounds like a cure to my problems, but it's not. I'm not a man in a woman's body, I'm a woman who can't come to terms with reality.

Death is a better outcome then trying and learning that I am still myself in the end, female and all.

Ur not what the world tells u are, or what the finggers that point towards u tell that u are.
Dysphoria can make every litle tiny stupid ass shit become the biggest concern of your life.
U can have sure that u look much more masculine than u think, its literally a cientific fact. People always find themselves uglyer than what they are in reality.
Dont let dysphoria make u a hopeless persson whitout the urge to become someone u wish one day.
Take care of yourself, drink watter, get enougj sleep and the most important of all.... Be kind to yourself

 

[I_go_in]

You got got. It was all a meme.

 

[rainatthebusstop]

Transitioning sounds like a cure to my problems, but it's not. I'm not a man in a woman's body, I'm a woman who can't come to terms with reality.

Death is a better outcome then trying and learning that I am still myself in the end, female and all.

Hey man, I have been feeling that a lot myself lately and I just wanted to say that it wasn't a waste of time and effort. You didn't fall for a scheme or a dupe. There's people out there for whom transitioning was the correct decision. There are people out there who had the time, and money and medical attention, for whom a life started with the wrong gonosomes was a doable hurdle.

The reality is that it isn't that for a lot of people. Most people don't get it and have bought into a campaign of systemic hatred for people with a serious health problem, who were simply born wrong and who have been painted as "perverted freaks" by the media so that some rich assholes can keep trafficking people. So trans people are left with both the disconnect between their gender and their outward appearance, internalized hatred and a societal disgust and hatred all at once.

For all the trans joy in the world, there's more trans suffering.

I don't know how if it helps for you to know that what you're feeling is a shared experience, a thing that is far more common and far too little talked about in so called trans friendly spaces. But it is. And the suicide statistics don't just lower because other people want them to go away.