train might be my only option

[nails]

i have no money for any other method and i'm tired of waiting. everything hurts so bad, both emotionally and physically. every glimmer of hope i get is immediately crushed by reality. i will never live the life that i want to live, i'm so lonely all of the time, i'm tired of having no money. i just want this to be over, i'm so exhausted.

i don't want to ctb in such a gruesome way that will affect so many witnesses but i am out of options.

 

[Ozzyno]

What is the kind of life that you would like to live?

 

[wondering&wandering]

I'm sorry that's how you feel and where you are in life. For whatever it's worth, you're welcome to PM me if you're feeling lonely.

As far as everything else, I hope you can find a less grisley method, and ulimately find peace. (Hug if you want)

 

[nails]

What is the kind of life that you would like to live?

i want a life without loneliness or financial problems, i would like to transition and have the career that i actually want.

i always feel lonely because my mind is weird and annoying. all of my relationships (platonic or romantic) are just insanely painful for me because i can't properly function, i guess.
the career i want is complicated to get into, and even the people who make it into that field are always talking about how miserable they are/how little they make for the work they put in. this field is all i'm interested in, though. i'd rather die than do anything else.
transitioning is obviously out of the question.

sorry if this answer is too long

 

[Ozzyno]

i want a life without loneliness or financial problems, i would like to transition and have the career that i actually want.

i always feel lonely because my mind is weird and annoying. all of my relationships (platonic or romantic) are just insanely painful for me because i can't properly function, i guess.
the career i want is complicated to get into, and even the people who make it into that field are always talking about how miserable they are/how little they make for the work they put in. this field is all i'm interested in, though. i'd rather die than do anything else.
transitioning is obviously out of the question.

sorry if this answer is too long

The answer is not too long at all… you could talk a lot more and I would listen, there are lots of lonely people out there that would gladly listen to you and chat with you, myself included.

When you talk about transitioning you mean sex change or? I am asking because English is not my first language and that word means too many things in my opinion.

What kind of job are you talking about?

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish for it all to be gone, I understand feeling tired of suffering in this existence that is so painful to me. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[waterrrrrrrrrbottel]

I tried by train, it's very scary, very loud, the ground shakes under you as it comes closer. Just know what you're getting yourself in for. I wish you peace.

 

[nails]

The answer is not too long at all… you could talk a lot more and I would listen, there are lots of lonely people out there that would gladly listen to you and chat with you, myself included.

When you talk about transitioning you mean sex change or? I am asking because English is not my first language and that word means too many things in my opinion.

What kind of job are you talking about?

you're very kind, thank you! :)

yes, i was talking about a sex change. it's a really expensive process, i doubt i'll ever be able to do it.

and i want to pursue a career in animation or illustration. it's a difficult field to get into, and a lot of artists aren't paid well.

 

[CogitoMori]

i have no money for any other method and i'm tired of waiting. everything hurts so bad, both emotionally and physically. every glimmer of hope i get is immediately crushed by reality. i will never live the life that i want to live, i'm so lonely all of the time, i'm tired of having no money. i just want this to be over, i'm so exhausted.

i don't want to ctb in such a gruesome way that will affect so many witnesses but i am out of options.

Have you considered freezing as an alternative? It's a relatively peaceful and natural way to go

 

[astr4]

Have you considered freezing as an alternative? It's a relatively peaceful and natural way to go

just wanna add you're aiming for hypothermia with this and not frostbite, nothing under 0 degrees

 

[nails]

Have you considered freezing as an alternative? It's a relatively peaceful and natural way to go

i haven't heard of this method. apologies for the possibly stupid question, but how is it usually done?

 

[CogitoMori]

i haven't heard of this method. apologies for the possibly stupid question, but how is it usually done?

Honestly, a lot of cultures from colder climates would just let their elderly that are close to death walk out into the winter and pick a place to lie down. Some people have used freezers. First you'll feel cold, then you'll start feeling numb, then you start feeling so warm that you'll want to disrobe and probably will. Then you'll fall asleep with that warm feeling.

 

[Ozzyno]

you're very kind, thank you! :)

yes, i was talking about a sex change. it's a really expensive process, i doubt i'll ever be able to do it.

and i want to pursue a career in animation or illustration. it's a difficult field to get into, and a lot of artists aren't paid well.

Yes sex change is definitely a difficult process to go through, both economically and physically, if that's really what you desire I hope one day you'll be able to be whatever you feel like you are without going through all those surgeries.

Anything related to art is not well paid in the modern world unfortunately, you are right. We are building a world made for engineers and bankers not for artists.

 

[Misanthrope0000]

I'm also a poor person stuck in a third world country and i thought about throwing myself in front of a train many times.. seems like I'm not the only one with this problem

 

[bleeding_heart_show]

I am in a very similar situation.

Decapitation by train is not messy if the photos I have seen are genuine. Just some blood splatters and a neatly severed head. The hardest part is sticking your head in the gap and resting your neck up on the rail while the train passes. I was contemplating it tonight while I watched a train pass and it seemed daunting given the speed it was moving, but doable once you work up the courage to go through with it.

There is always jumping in front of it, but I do not trust that as much since I have seen loads of videos of mangled people moving about after being hit. To me it is not worth the risk of surviving and being crippled.

Nya poka.

I tried by train, it's very scary, very loud, the ground shakes under you as it comes closer. Just know what you're getting yourself in for. I wish you peace.

This is something I was caught off guard by tonight. Once I was a yard or so away from it I found I could not move any closer because I was so overwhelmed by the sound and vibration in my skull. I am still a bit shaky afterwards, haha.