Too scared to die

[Toxic Positivity]

Today I am grateful for my cowardice. I am glad that the thought of experience itself fizzling out terrifies me and gives me pause. The thought of dying alone in this messy room and being found days later decomposing repulses me. So I may as well get back in touch with my friends and do something to make things better, rather than pursue something I am not ready for yet, and might not even be ready for when it eventually comes for me.

 

[Joey]

Live this life to the fullest if you do decide to recover. Remember, death comes for us all in the end and if there's a chance that things can get better, just let people you know that you love them and care about them

 

[CometDustBear]

I'm happy for ya!
It can be so tough just living but there are great people out there and great things to see and just a world to experience for all it is, good and bad. "Cowardice"? I'd say it's your 'flame' to keep going despite everything. I hope you keep going, keep that fire burning til the end!
I hope you have success getting back in touch with friends and you find things worth staying alive for! Just take it day by day, be easy & patient with yourself.
Good luck & take care, be sure to eat some good food too :] ♥

 

[timf]

Ir sounds like you have found some resolve to tackle the hard work of taking control and turning things around. This sounds less like cowardice and more like a harsh encounter with reality that taps into a strength of character you may not have known you have.

 

[whatevs]

Onwards, my heavily armored rat antromorph! Into the battlefields, looking to reclaim your life!