Discussion Too good to be true?

[darkandtwisty]

Does anyone else have increased suicidal ideation when things seem to be going well?

I have this pattern in my life where things seem to be wonderful. But there's always a downward spiral of some kind. As beautiful, wonderful, amazing as it can get, it always changes to the polar opposite.

I often find myself wondering wouldn't it be better to CTB when things are good then go through all of the pain, heartache, and disappointment that always comes around? End on a high note.

 

[SuicidalBoredom]

Yeah I think it's pretty smart to CTB when things are good.

 

[I wish to be happy]

Probably not the same, but when things go well for me I still feel like dying. It makes me feel bad when I know I should be happy but I just can't.

 

[Gangrel]

I get like this too i guess, it feels like i don't deserve it and it goes away quickly, soon enough i will have to wake up at 7 am again everyday go to souless work so it feels like it's not worth it.

 

[darkandtwisty]

I should have just done it when I posted this. Inevitably, all supposed good things must come to an end. I was happy and in love. And last night, I found out my now ex boyfriend was on dating apps. Heartbroken and yet not surprised. I can't go on feeling like this. Every relationship I've been in has resulted in unfaithfulness. There's something wrong with me and they know it.