Too depressed to ctb

[DrowningWithin]

I've run into an issue where my body just gets so unbearable tired all the time. I'm always so exhausted to the point I can't even crb. It just seems like so much work and I feel obligated to leave stuff behind for my family and friends. There's too many steps and I wish I could take the easy way out of that too.

I'm not sure what to do I'm just so uncontrollably tired and especially when I feel sad. It's like existing is taking up all my energy. My family nor anyone understands I just can't do it anymore. But as the days pass, I can't even ctb. I'm stuck in a loop of feeling like I can't be bothered but needing to leave. I've quit everything, schooling, work, personal relationships etc. My eternal rest is all I've ever wanted.

 

[inara_9]

Same...I've been so exhausted lately too, just procrastinating everything and feeling like I've got no energy or motivation for anything. Then it just turns into this constant guilt loop on top of it all, which makes everything feel even heavier.

It's like when you're in that state, even the smallest things start piling up and feel weirdly impossible to deal with. I really wish people had more understanding for how heavy depression can feel instead of expecting you to just push through it.

I'm really sorry you're dealing with that. Sending you a lot of care and a hug