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ezekielj

ezekielj

Member
Aug 3, 2025
8
Hello, strangers,

I don't know if anyone here knows me, or if anyone ever will. My account is sort of new (over a month old), and I don't know any of you in real life. But I wanted to leave something behind before I CTB, a final message in a place that, for a short while, offered me comfort.

In the next hour or two, I will CTB via SN. I have done the preparation, and already sorted out my final letters and everything thereafter. Immediately after this post, I will be trying to sign out of this account, and then permanently wipe my browsing history with this site, as if I never knew it. So no one can try to label or blame this site in particular as my final reason to CTB.

This site can be a strange place. People connect, they talk, they share, and there's a warmth in that. I've felt it. And yet… I also know what it can lead to. The loop of comparison, the endless cycles of doubt and isolation. I've been caught in it, more than once. I know others have too. That's part of why I'm writing this: to reach even one person who might be reading these words and feeling like there's no way forward.

I hope, truly hope, that even if this post is forgotten among the hundreds of thousands, one person might see it and pause. One person might choose to keep going. One person might find a reason to survive, just a little longer. That is all I ask. No one else should feel like they have to end their life. Life is hard. Life is heavy. But you are not alone, even if it feels that way. You are worth the time it takes to find light again, even if it seems impossible right now.

This is my path. But if my words here can, in some small way, save just one person, then maybe there's some purpose to it after all. I leave this here with that hope, and with my gratitude to the few brief comforts I found in human connection, even online.

Take care of yourselves. Be kind to each other. Keep talking. Keep reaching. Keep living.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,323
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
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Lyscx

Lyscx

Member
Sep 7, 2025
25
Damn man, if you are still here i really hope there is still a way for you to enjoy life.
 
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hmnow

Student
Jul 29, 2025
120
Hello, strangers,

I don't know if anyone here knows me, or if anyone ever will. My account is sort of new (over a month old), and I don't know any of you in real life. But I wanted to leave something behind before I CTB, a final message in a place that, for a short while, offered me comfort.

In the next hour or two, I will CTB via SN. I have done the preparation, and already sorted out my final letters and everything thereafter. Immediately after this post, I will be trying to sign out of this account, and then permanently wipe my browsing history with this site, as if I never knew it. So no one can try to label or blame this site in particular as my final reason to CTB.

This site can be a strange place. People connect, they talk, they share, and there's a warmth in that. I've felt it. And yet… I also know what it can lead to. The loop of comparison, the endless cycles of doubt and isolation. I've been caught in it, more than once. I know others have too. That's part of why I'm writing this: to reach even one person who might be reading these words and feeling like there's no way forward.

I hope, truly hope, that even if this post is forgotten among the hundreds of thousands, one person might see it and pause. One person might choose to keep going. One person might find a reason to survive, just a little longer. That is all I ask. No one else should feel like they have to end their life. Life is hard. Life is heavy. But you are not alone, even if it feels that way. You are worth the time it takes to find light again, even if it seems impossible right now.

This is my path. But if my words here can, in some small way, save just one person, then maybe there's some purpose to it after all. I leave this here with that hope, and with my gratitude to the few brief comforts I found in human connection, even online.

Take care of yourselves. Be kind to each other. Keep talking. Keep reaching. Keep living.
I hope you find clarity in your final moments
 
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MyShadow

MyShadow

Looking for answers as I exit this life
Aug 27, 2025
159
This is the most important and touching thing I have ever read on this forum.

I'm without words.
 
12-hour Kitten

12-hour Kitten

Creature
Sep 4, 2025
12
Wish you the best. Your post is really important and you'll be remembered for the lives it might save. Good luck and good rest.
 
Firefly.Forest

Firefly.Forest

Member
Aug 28, 2025
30
OP - I hope you find clarity and peace in your chosen path.
I hope to be able to join you soon once my preparations are complete.

It is truly poignant, as one poster said beyond words, how you want to inspire others to live.
There is a purpose to your life - you chose to shed light on others.

I wish I had the opportunity to know you better and I admire your heart.
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claviceps.purpurea

New Member
Jun 29, 2025
4
I can't stop crying for what you said. Your words reminded me to a person I lost several years ago. He had a very similar soul to yours. He always took care of others. Even when he lost hope, he kept on giving love and hope to people. I don't know u personally, I don't know if you will read this before ctb, but I want to say you touched my heart forever and I feel you're special. I really love you:heart:
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,538
Endless love, peace and tranquility to you.

Always around if anything changes, my good friend.

Walter
 
R. A.

R. A.

If I must die, do not let them say I did not live.
Aug 8, 2022
1,478
Ah, I saw one of your first of few posts. I'm sad I likely missed you. What a lovely parting message you gave us...I hope that if you are indeed gone, your wishes here if nothing else can be a legacy.
Hoping you may rest easy among the cosmos once again 💕 🌠
 
amerie

amerie

eyekon
Oct 6, 2024
914
This is one of the most touching CTB notices I've ever read on this site, just makes this even more heart wrenching ❤️

Rest in peace you beautiful soul, I'm so glad you were able to find solace within this place.
 

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