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Jul 30, 2019
26
My protocol is pretty bare bones:

2:00 pm : food fast
8:00 pm : water fast
9:00 pm : 25mg 6-Shogaol (antiemetic)
10:00 pm : drink 25g SN mixed in 50ml of water (second cup if necessary)

Hoping today is a bit uneventful; I really don't want any last minute anxiety or regret.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
862
I hope you find the profound peace and stillness you truly deserve. May your transition be gentle.
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Paragon
Oct 13, 2019
923
Any plans for the last day?
 
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Any plans for the last day?
Just to stay relaxed and on routine. I've always felt that the ideal day should be just like any other.

Less novelty -> less anxiety
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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good luck, I hope you find peace ❤️‍🩹
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
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Sorry that it came to this for you. I note you are using Shogoal, I have ondansetron in my protocol. I wish you all the best in love and peace. Sending hugs your way 🤗
 
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IThirst4Freedom

New Member
Mar 23, 2026
2
Good luck man, I have my SN but not sure if i want to go that route as i also have Fentanyl i might try first. Hope you find peace
 
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peewee

Specialist
Oct 16, 2025
331
good luck friend, I will be joining you soon x
 
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❤︎
Mar 3, 2026
190
Whatever you decide to do, I hope you find peace ❤️‍🩹
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
175
I hope you find peace and relief you are search for, good luck.
I wishing you all the best.
 
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U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
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>no one clocking this account is nearly seven years old

i read a couple of your older posts. sad to see that you managed to improve some in some ways, but are still at this point. i'm sorry
 
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squiddedoutt

squiddedoutt

blahaj cuddler
Feb 23, 2026
15
^^^

I'm glad you were able to get your sn. It sounds rough how your life went downhill (i would never dream of trying vsed).

I hope you get what you want <3
 
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chudcell

chudcell

BPD + attachment issues :/
Feb 20, 2026
16
Wishing you a peaceful travel to the otherside. Anyways best wishes 😇❤️
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,754
I hope you find the freedom you are searching for.
 

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