Tonight

[moody_cupcakes]

Can't deal anymore. My SN got here a day early and I feel it's a sign... I'm scared that I'm messing with what my life should have been and maybe it would have all worked out but I already have 6 failed attempts and those times I was never afraid just today...planning to cbt in about 20 min. Im just tired of always being in pain and abandoned.

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Good luck Moody. I hope this helps you with your pain.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace and freedom from this horrible world.
A little advise... Make sure you hide/store any extra SN for future use in case your plan is unsuccessful
the first attempt. (Not saying it won't be, just be prepared)

 

[ilk]

goodluck & i hope you find peace.

 

[max_vader2]

I can't wish you good luck, because even if we are strangers in there internet and I'll never meet you, I still hope that your life gets better

But regardless of the result, I hope you find peace

 

[athiestjoe]

If it arrived a day early, did you have adequate time to fast ahead of it per the protocols though? If you have not put in the prep of the day with fasting (stop food 8 hours and stop water 2 hours before) it may be wise to wait until you can commit to the protocol. And time enough for the AE (like meto) to kick in? Not telling you to do or not to do anything, just to try to avoid risk of failure is all. Just throwing it out there that if you want to risk another failure it may be a good idea to do it properly.

I am happy to hear your SN arrived safe and sound.

Good luck with whatever you decide and hope you get peace & serenity.

 

[Fate]

Try not to act on impulse. Impulse usually leads to failure. It's easier planning a date and getting prepared for it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering, to me it really is such a cruel existence but anyway I hope you find peace.

 

[NeoN0va]

Hope you find peace.

 

[NegevChina]

Wish you to find peace.

 

[moody_cupcakes]

Can't deal anymore. My SN got here a day early and I feel it's a sign... I'm scared that I'm messing with what my life should have been and maybe it would have all worked out but I already have 6 failed attempts and those times I was never afraid just today...planning to cbt in about 20 min. Im just tired of always being in pain and abandoned.

Was interrupted and forgot about the fasting. Planning tomorrow. Hopefully this works out. Thank you everyone for your kind words. Hopefully this is over soon

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Glad you decided to take your time and do it right. As others have stated impulsivity leads to failure.

 

[maniac116]

Eternal love & peace to you.
I hope your transition is smooth & painless