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darksouls

darksouls

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good luck, I hope you find the peace you desire ❤️‍🩹
 
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So I've woken up sick - sore throat and cold. Will this affect my plan in anyway?
 
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leoneliona

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Mar 31, 2026
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I know we haven't talked, but I've read most of your posts and want to say that I unfortunately know almost exactly what you're feeling. My suicide attempt left me with permanent physical issues as well and I will be using the same method as you as a part two, lol. As much as I wish we were not going through this I will say it has been comforting to see that someone else understands. I thought I could persevere through it as well, but the nerve pain and constant reminder of what I have lost is too much for me as well. I really hope you find peace.
 
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I know we haven't talked, but I've read most of your posts and want to say that I unfortunately know almost exactly what you're feeling. My suicide attempt left me with permanent physical issues as well and I will be using the same method as you as a part two, lol. As much as I wish we were not going through this I will say it has been comforting to see that someone else understands. I thought I could persevere through it as well, but the nerve pain and constant reminder of what I have lost is too much for me as well. I really hope you find peace.
I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this aswell. I completely empathise with what you said about it being a constant reminder of pain and loss. What was the method you used and what damage was done? Thank you, wishing you peace aswell.
 
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Your method seems well thought out, I think I'll use it too.
About you, are you okay with this? Are you sure? There's no need to rush, but anyway I hope you can do this peacefully...it's always hard to see goodbyes, I mean...good luck.
 
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leoneliona

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I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this aswell. I completely empathise with what you said about it being a constant reminder of pain and loss. What was the method you used and what damage was done? Thank you, wishing you peace aswell.
I won't go into it too in depth on the public forum, but feel free to message me because my story is pretty recognizable to anyone that knows me. Ended up in an amputation though. Can't recommend it to say the least lol.
 
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I won't go into it too in depth on the public forum, but feel free to message me because my story is pretty recognizable to anyone that knows me. Ended up in an amputation though. Can't recommend it to say the least lol.
Oh I am so soo sorry! I will PM you 🤍
Your method seems well thought out, I think I'll use it too.
About you, are you okay with this? Are you sure? There's no need to rush, but anyway I hope you can do this peacefully...it's always hard to see goodbyes, I mean...good luck.
Thank you, I hope I succeed. As much as I am scared of pain - I am at peace with my decision.
 
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I think of your story frequently. I had a close friend who succeeded at jumping, and it's made your experience really stick with me and accept that he had made his choice and he would not have been happy to survive. I wish I could give you the biggest of hugs, and I hope it brings some warmth to you that sharing your words here has helped a stranger find some peace.

I am so sorry for the pain life has brought you, I am so sorry that you find yourself here. I never want anyone to have to choose this. I will keep you in my memories, and I hope you find the quiet and calm you seek.
 
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I think of your story frequently. I had a close friend who succeeded at jumping, and it's made your experience really stick with me and accept that he had made his choice and he would not have been happy to survive. I wish I could give you the biggest of hugs, and I hope it brings some warmth to you that sharing your words here has helped a stranger find some peace.

I am so sorry for the pain life has brought you, I am so sorry that you find yourself here. I never want anyone to have to choose this. I will keep you in my memories, and I hope you find the quiet and calm you seek.
I'm glad to hear you could make peace with your friend's passing. Mourning that loss would be difficult. But I can assure you if they made that choice, then they are in a better place 🕊 thank you sm for your kind words 🤍
 
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So I've woken up sick - sore throat and cold. Will this affect my
I think that the problem with what you are experiencing would be nausea from feeling unwell.

Since you seem sure of your decision, I won't try to discourage you at this point, but be aware that a cold might complicate things.

It seems that you have time before you fast, so for the time being you can take fluids until you feel that it is time to stop.

Also, try to get some food in you now, if you can. It will help you feel better.

I am sorry that you don't feel well. Take care of yourself the best you can, and when it is time - you will know.

Don't know how to do the hug emoji, but sending you one now.

We love you.
 
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fightclub17

Hopefully ctb on the 9th of April
Mar 3, 2026
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I think that the problem with what you are experiencing would be nausea from feeling unwell.

Since you seem sure of your decision, I won't try to discourage you at this point, but be aware that a cold might complicate things.

It seems that you have time before you fast, so for the time being you can take fluids until you feel that it is time to stop.

Also, try to get some food in you now, if you can. It will help you feel better.

I am sorry that you don't feel well. Take care of yourself the best you can, and when it is time - you will know.

Don't know how to do the hug emoji, but sending you one now.

We love you.
Yeah I'm worried of nausea cos right now drinking anything is a little painful. But if salt water gargles aid sore throats, maybe SN will make it feel better who knows. I am still determined. I'll eat some healthy meals and keep my fluids up today. Thank you, I appreciate your kind words 🤍
 
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