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So initially I planned to CTB in a few days, but recently I've been optimistic and feeling a bit better, so I'll try to CTB earlier and today several hours from new seems like a good time to go if any.

So I'm posting this in case I go ahead with that earlier than schedule, I'll post again in case I drink the SN. Once that post is done, I'll only post again if I feel in pain/uncomfortable to keep you guys updated. If I don't post, assume I'm not suffering enough to bother or that I passed out.

If possible, I would like if an older (hopefully trusted) member could text with me so I don't have to be logged in on this site, so if anyone is up for that please do contact me. Would prefer discord/whatsapp since they're the only ones I use.

Either way, I thank this forum for sparing me from a lot of pain on the failing methods I would keep trying to CTB with should I have not found this place. So thank you.

On a side note, how do I get my name crossed?

Edit: Decided to carry on with it, or at the very least try. Wait for edit and post if I do drink it. Started with bromopride 1:15 before (takes longer to act than meto, pretty much same med from what I was told). For the rest following 25g in 50ml and Stan's guide.

Edit2: Decided not to self ban. If I somehow survive and am (obviously forcefully) sent inpatient, I would like to talk about what went wrong. Possibly the unreliable purity from the SN I bought, but I'm still confident I'll CTB. Well, I'm an internet addict who logs in every day so if I'm not back in a few months, there you have the answer :)

Edit3: Drank it.
 
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Living sucks

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Here's some info on self banning

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-my-presence-from-this-site.38713/post-716487
 
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I'm thinking about you, whatever you choose to do, I love you so much and respect your decision! I'm keeping you in my thoughts, stay strong and free, I love you❤️

Love,
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Whichever way you go, I wish you peace, acceptance, and clarity. I don't know exactly what brought you to this place, but I imagine that much suffering is involved here. I am sorry for that. I wish this were a better planet, and that humans were a better species. I hope that you find your peace.
 
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Wishing you relief and peace. No matter what your decision. Always welcome here.
 
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Wishing you find your peace and freedom from this life. :hug: :heart: :hug: :heart:
 
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Sending you light and love for whatever journey you might choose!
 
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Decided to at least try it. Started the stat dose regimen.
 
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Peace friend.
 
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I'm so glad that you're feeling better and optimistic today. Even a moment of joy is something to celebrate. Be well, no matter the outcome.
 
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SerialFailer

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Drank it, GOD IT'S SALTY.
Also feel a slight burn at my throat, will try to keep updated if there's pain
 
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Sending Peace to you
I'm here if you need to talk.
 
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Peace to you dear. May you have a wonderful journey.
 
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I wish you the best whatever path you choose. You're not alone in this, we have your back. I wish you eternal peace and and good luck with your journey.
 
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Drank it, GOD IT'S SALTY.
Also feel a slight burn at my throat, will try to keep updated if there's pain
Oh my goodness you are so brave. I am assuming you are now passed out? This sounds like a dumb question, because you said at 12 that you drank it. So many blessings for peace
 
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Safe journey my friend x
 
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Rip my friend. We lose yet another good soul .
 
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I hope you rest in peace.
 
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Good luck. I hope you find peace.
 
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That was so fast :( Hope it wasn't painful and everything went smooth. RIP SerialFailer :heart:
 
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I don't know you and I'm still very new here. It's been five hours and it seems you haven't been back. I hope with all my heart that everything went smoothly and you had a peaceful passing and whatever afterlife you believed in/hoped for has become a reality for you.
 
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Safe passage SerialFailer
 
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Rest in peace
 
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You were damnn brave to do it. Wishh uhh love, peace and happiness❤
 
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I hope you find peace
 
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So long buddy, wish you well wherever you go.
 
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Love and peace, goodbye my friend ❤
 
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suicidall

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So initially I planned to CTB in a few days, but recently I've been optimistic and feeling a bit better, so I'll try to CTB earlier and today several hours from new seems like a good time to go if any.

So I'm posting this in case I go ahead with that earlier than schedule, I'll post again in case I drink the SN. Once that post is done, I'll only post again if I feel in pain/uncomfortable to keep you guys updated. If I don't post, assume I'm not suffering enough to bother or that I passed out.

If possible, I would like if an older (hopefully trusted) member could text with me so I don't have to be logged in on this site, so if anyone is up for that please do contact me. Would prefer discord/whatsapp since they're the only ones I use.

Either way, I thank this forum for sparing me from a lot of pain on the failing methods I would keep trying to CTB with should I have not found this place. So thank you.

On a side note, how do I get my name crossed?

Edit: Decided to carry on with it, or at the very least try. Wait for edit and post if I do drink it. Started with bromopride 1:15 before (takes longer to act than meto, pretty much same med from what I was told). For the rest following 25g in 50ml and Stan's guide.

Edit2: Decided not to self ban. If I somehow survive and am (obviously forcefully) sent inpatient, I would like to talk about what went wrong. Possibly the unreliable purity from the SN I bought, but I'm still confident I'll CTB. Well, I'm an internet addict who logs in every day so if I'm not back in a few months, there you have the answer :)

Edit3: Drank it.



hope you found the peace you were searching for. ♥️
 
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